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i still cant understand why he left me...and why he left me hanging on a thread...
i saw him online...once...but then he logged out...
i walked passed through him..but then he ignored me..
i tried to talk to him..but he didnt say anything...

is that how not worthy i am??
if that so...i shouldnt be loving anyone anymore...
or should i say...
i shouldnt feel love anymore...

i almost filled my heart with hate..but then..i stopped myself...
cause i remember that theres still hope..
i kept on waiting..trying to look for that single speck of light...
but all i see is darkness..
the darkness thats trying to blind me...

i tried to find that speck of light..
trying to reach out on something..like a baby..looking for its toy..
but all i found is coldness..
the coldness thats trying to burn my flesh..
i felt a sudden impact through my body...
it was fast and intense...
it made me shiver....but in a good way..
it was like nothing i've ever felt before...
it was..a soul..

a soul that lead me to that speck of light..
but when i tried to find it..it left me..
but i was near the light..just a few steps..
then i reached it...

it was like a piece of heaven..
i felt the breeze on my skin...
i inhaled pure air...

i knew this was true good to be true..but a hand reached out for me..
i reached for it..it was soft..like cotton..smooth like silk..