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I like adding entries! I get to talk about stuff and not worry about receiving any feedback! lol ^__^ Anyways, I posted a little in my shop over the past week and I'd like to summarize.

My last entry was simply angst about my shop. Yes, I'm still angsting, but not so much anymore, now I'm seeing the good sides of it. Yes, my shop has 114 pages and only 8 happy campers, but that's not to say it's bad, I just bump a lot. My art has improved from when I first started the shop and you can see the progression if you look at the consoomers list one by one. That's good! I'm happy that my shop got a face-lift, I'm happy that it has customers, but I'm no longer going to define my shop by it's customers or my own popularity. I've never been good with social scenes or being assertive, so that's not my strongpoint. My strongpoint and quality of service and all around having fun with what I do! Sure, sometimes it's stressful juggling school and my little obsessions with Gaia and my computer in general, but I do get satisfaction even if it's coupled with guilt. I need to take this by the horns and just hop up onto the bull's head, ride with it, take the good with the bad. I don't know who else gets enjoyment from this other than myself, maybe the customers, but I'm too paranoid to admit they like my drawings. I'm just happy they actually paid for them and gave them some pixel-worth to help build my self-esteem. You never know, maybe I'll build up enough goldself-esteem to maybe take a step back and maybe interact with the real world? Who knows, I don't, my grades don't and my parents sure don't. So all I'm going to do is do it. Juggle, be brave, maybe get some sleep, and take it.

That's right. Take it.