In all my years of being alive I have done things I was not proud of. I have ******** myself up to the point of not caring for those around me. I am beginning to push the ones I love away. But I believe it is the best for them. I hate to hurt and hate to be hurt. I am a very kind and generous. I would blame myself if I was unable to help my friends. I am being pushed into a corner, sooner or later I am going to snap. I have only done this once before, I felt so foolish, like someone accidently killing something beloved. My regrets are many, and I live with them along with all the burden they cause me. I am not meant to be happy, just to live long enough to have judgement passed upon me. Whatever happens not just without reason but with cause, and only I can alter the future. My feelings are my only bond to this world.
Nakano Hitori Community Member 
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