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Light a match
flick the flame to my eyes and see
no reaction takes to me
and you laugh
and i laugh
but we both know its not all that funny
crushed pill
and dried blood

I've been staring at you all day
thinking you'll dissapear
but you smirk
and i smile
and we talk until the sun comes up
what happened to...
Love?
it hurt so bad
and i cried
I won't lie about it to you
but you're the reason for it all
and im sorry you have to know
I'm in love with you
and its been longer than I thought

take a ride
on a train going nowhere fast
and the tracks are all split in half
while the driver chokes
we both scream out in ecstacy
the collision is too close at hand
and still, i'm too afraid to kiss you
so what?
maybe I don't know my mind
but you don't know yours either
can't we just be
together alone for a few more hours?

But she's out there
with a frown
and she's waiting for you to come back down
and you'll go to her
without reminders
without a glance
and no goodbyes
for me

call me selfish
i guess i am.....

see these eyes?
the lashes are frozen over
while they sparkle and dance
see the blue swim within the lids
light the match
hold it close to my dialated pupils
and melt them back to normal
its hard to believe
now you're gone away

but you're out there
with her
and im lonely in love with you
but she smiles
and you kiss
and it hurts
I'll admit
but today my tears wanna fall too easily
and tonight, i might just bleed a little more than normal

call me selfish
cause its true

lay beneath the dying trees and think about the coming snow
so silver and pure, like lillies in bloom
untouchable...
like you

but you can touch me
cause I'm not that pure
even if I'd like to think so
see the chills on my death-like skin
watch me beg for one more sin
one more stain on my name
one more horse in a race that i know i cannot win
call me crazy
but id gamble my world if it ment one more hour with you
one more word of love
one more opporitunity for me to waste

and one day
i swear
i'll run right up to you and tell it all
how I've admired and love you for so long
how you're smile is the only thing that keeps me alive
and you're words are the only thing holding me here
when we walk alone
so happy in our sorrow
or when you walk away
as we both regret tomorrow
afraid of the monster at the corner
afraid of the hands at the end of the driveway
it's my only moment of peace
when home isn't home
when mother isn't mother
and father is just a stranger

but she's out there
in the sun
and right now im so weak
i cannot run
so go to her like you want
and kiss her lips and steal her charm
and you'll whisper
while she sighs
and you'll hold her for a long time
i shatter my hopes one last time
"I will always love you"

Even if it's a lie