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I really, REALLY missed somehting didn't I?

And she doesn't even to think WHY she's saying sorry. Thats what pisses my off.

Why Are You Saying Good Bye For cry

Somehow......Somehow, I knew something bad was going to happen while I'm gone. I'm still in Aussie right now. Mikoto. If you're still alive, want you to tell me what happened. Even though I said that I won't force anyone to tell me their problems, THIS, I have to know, especially if you're saying goodbye. I won't be a softy on you anymore if you refuse to tell me. I don't want to have to come back home with one of my best friends dead, all right? If you piss me off enough, I WILL end you.

I miss you a lot. Don't break my heart even more. I would have a major break down if you died.

Listen, sorry isn't helping ANYTHING!!! Don't say it, it's pointless. I'm only pissed off at the fact you were my friend, you knew it was hurting me, and as much as you say you care, I don't believe it.I'm a laid back person, so it takes a lot to get me angry. I wont say I hate you, but I am extremely upset. You KNEW how much he meant to me! He was the ONLY one I had! I'm getting over it now, but thinking I Cut myself 5 times, deep, on my wrist (Which I never normally do) Just because everytime I thought of you and Him I wanted to rip my heart out, makes me feel stupid. I lost 8-10 pounds because when I thought of you guys I couldn't even think about food without throwing up. I worried the hell out of my parents because I showed them my scars and I said I want medication! Anything to get you two out of my head!!! God!!! I'm trying not to cry now because I feel like such an idiot! Believing his lies, was a mistake. Trusting you, was a mistake. Believing I could look past this, is a mistake! This thing is NOT going to be resolved until you and I talk. Once again, I don't hate you, but I am highly pissed off. Expect a visit from me, because I plan to drop by.

No. I'm sorry Mikoto. I know I've been a real jerk and I'm sorry. If you could find it in your heart to forgive me, then you and I can catch up on things.