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lately, everybody has started to change. People starting to like me, people starting to leave me....people who have known me for years are starting to treat me as if I'm nothing....people have started talking to me as if I don't understand and am mentally challenged.....Maybe I should be.....maybe I should just have a major accident and be in the hospital.....become mentally challenged.....then it wouldn't affect me so much because I'd think that they were trying to help me out and not put me down......I'm sick of it....people playing with me...not taking anything I say seriously.....everybody.....every one of you people that I know have hurt me in some way or will hurt me.....right now....I'd rather just be left for dead than to have to deal with all the crap you people have against me.....I don't know what I've done to you and I doubt most of you can actually pin something against me that I didn't warn you about........if you're going to be my friend....at least be completely honest with me.....so I don't do something that I'm going to regret........I mean.....some of you people just take me for a complete idiot....You talk to me, I cheer you up and make you laugh and all that other crap...what do you do for me? you walk on me and treat me like crap until you need me again....I honestly don't see how or why you would do something like that to somebody who didn't do a damn thing to you......its like my opinion doesn't matter, you hear one thing that you don't like in my statements and you just say "yeah, ok" or "mmhm..." ....that's what kills me because I do my freakin best to do anything to help you all....even if its something I'm not 100% sure I should be doing....I try...and I ******** try hard.....to keep all you freaking people happy...to do my freaking best to let you all be my friends and trust you all and all that other bs......and I just get stabbed in the freakin back by more than half of you......if you can't actually listen to my opinions and actually take the time to understand how I feel about things...maybe you should just ******** off and stay the hell away from me.....
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