well i called peter on friday and i found out that he was planning on dumping me on saturday. i wonder why he didn't tell me on monday. but no. he waited. i doubt that he wanted to brake up. but i dunno. well when i called i was wondering why he knew why i wanted to brake up. it turns out that he cheated on me the week before the friday i called. which was either the 29 or the 30th i don't remember when but yeah. he hurt me like hell. but the surprising thing is...i didn't cry as much as i thought i would. which throws me off....but...i knew that he's cheatin on me. and i found out that he lied to me again. he wasn't a virgin at all. he lost that crapy thing long time ago. i just wish he coulda been honest with me. and the more i think about it....i dunno...i wanna beat the s**t out of him. but i can't...i dunno...i still love that jerk. but i'll get over him soon. i'm soo pissed at him. i'm upset cause he dun wanna be friends. so that got me to think...is it me that he hates? well it makes sense cause he dun wanna be friends....he admits that he's weak....well anyways. he's with sarah now. and hopefully she uses him. just like his other exs. i wouldn't be surprised ta see him come cryin ta me. but i dun care. i'll give him the cold shoulder, just like how he did that to me. he also told me that i'm excatly like his exs...which pisses me off. i think it's only because he wants to get rid of me and how he treats us. not just me but his other exs. i hate him.
.....nyah...so yeah...something like that....i have matt...and he's visiting me this thrusday. i love him. he makes me feel different. like things we say are going to happen. i can't wait to move out. well i'm diching class today. i ddin't finish my painting. i lefted it at home. i'm gonna talk to my professor on wednesday. just ta make sure i didn't disappear or anything. >.< oh well.
anyways, i'm happy matt is coming ta visit me. smile i can be happy again. i dunno...it might be too fast. but matt seems to really want this relationship to work out. i do too. smile he's soo sweet. i'm surprised that i'm different from his other exs. hehehee. i feel happy. lol
nyahh.....i wonder if matt's gonna call me again...he told me that he will. biggrin i can't wait ta talk to him again. hehehe so i should better get off soon. nyah!
and my feelings...i think i'm recovering pretty fast. peter seems ta have been fading away from me towards the end. it's either that...or i'm just deying myself...i dunno anymore. i need matt here with me. but...overall...i know i'll be doing okay. well...right now that is, i am doing okay.
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