Morning song is to prove how I feel is.....I by Taproot
I really do hate myself for hiding things away form people. I know I hide them for a reason that I don't want things to end by the way I see them. I really don't know why but everytime I think about something I start to see the bad things about it. That why I really do hate myself for it.
Like....I been with Soubi for like a year and few month but though the time I was with Gaara. Hard to say even when I fallen for soubi. I been thinking how should I end my relationship with him with out killing him. I seen too much drama but I do see alot of teen breakup. I don't know what to do even I been thinking how should I tell him with out him killing himself. I still remember he blames himself for his brothers death.
As I think about this I still feel the guilty coming to me like it was a new virus to me.
Still....I don't want him to die but be friends then um.....well, i still believe he'll be pissed.
Like what rit would say and I would take them to heart.
"Time has change and it time to move on."
I know for a fact that true. I still feel bad for hurting him and I never done thing before but this one time but I was mad. Well sooner or later I don't know what should I do even for the fact there well be a war.
This other one it a shocker *giggles* this might change alot of things for you readers. I still haven't got my driver licenses even that I'm 18 I do know how to drive but still need few work. My computer got an upgrade but I was mostly on the phone.
Still times does goes fast and I feel like a dirty old lady even I am xD
I hope if I have enough guts to tell Gaara he'll understand I hope. Until then I might just think of a note to myself. I might let out more cats out of the bags.
until then I hope the guity doesn't kill me more then the thoughts.
~Ayame
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