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What I Hate About Me


What I hate about me
Is my insincerity
How I hold everything inside
And lie to keep things 'straight'
How I don't say how I feel
To protect everyone I care for
And in order to do this
How I hurt myself so

What I hate about me
Is my lack of confidence
How I hold myself back
And don't reach for my potential
And criticize myself for not
Trying my best
How I avoid every situation that
I think I cannot handle

What I hate about me
Is the anger I feel inside
How I envy everyone
And wish for pain in their lives
And how that hate boils over
And I lash out at everyone
How I hurt everyone
Because I have no control

What I hate about me
Is my overwhelming grief
How I feel there is no hope
For me anymore
And how I dig myself deeper
Into this hole of self-pity
Wishing every moment
That I'll finish my grave

What I hate about me
Is my lack of change
How I can't help but
Stay the way I am
How I can't help myself
Climb out of this hole
And try to move on from here
And find something worth living for