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Callouseness


please i beg all who read, heed what i say, there is, so far as i know only one person for each of us that can, and will truely and wholey complete us. The person who will listen, the one that will love, that one special person that will take our pain and make it gone. This is that one person that when you even so much as speak to them you get an unexplainable sence of happiness, and other feelings, so that i can not put into words at all. This person i speak of is called a true love, and they are the only one to compliment us in all the world. I had mine for a while... but i messed up many times, some big some small, but the some of their parts, was too great over all, and now my love is gone...


Heh, go figgure I've ruined my life twice over now, the emptyness I felt inside was filled by the one i love, but on the flip side, I showed her nothing to fill her own gift back up. I took and I took untill she couldn't take any more, and I pushed her away with the stupidest arguement ever I truely must say. My mind and my body are warped beyond belief my souls twisted it self into a knot due to me, my innards feel as though they are too are knotted, and now i'm sicker than a dog and hurt like no hurt I've ever felt before. In order for the one I love so dearly to have said even half the things she said to me the last time I talked to her, i must have drained my lover, then taken more. She'd talk about her mom, and while I tried to take her mind off of her so she couldn't dwell on it, I was admittedly blind, and due to that I failed and I failed and never got the hint that I should have just let her speak what she needed said, I should have been Compassionate, and not so callouse, ~sighs~ if time travel only truely existed... I'd go back and change my ways from many months before, show her I truely do care about her... but its too late for me now, I've lost my dear lover and much much more. Do not think this is a cry out for help, or a plea begging her back to me or a guilt trip, its simply a warning to those with their love at heart, do not be callouse to the one you love, always show them your compassion, and show them your soul, let them see you for you and nothing less, be true be honest be the one they love, if they speak listen so you don't ruin your love.


As for now, I leave this entry this day, do not worry over me, i'll shall perservere, painful as it may be. No stupidity beyond the previous shall befall me. I refuse to let irrationallity win me.


do remember this isn't a beg, guilt trip, or plea...


this one last thing, is for her specifically, the one woman I love so deep and pure to make the ocean seem shallow and glacial ice seem like the slush on the side of a road. No other woman came and wandered through my mind at any time to take that love, and please my love don't take this the wrong way, but you are truely the key to my very heart and being, and I shall love you forever and always.


well my time here is now truely done, i'll post here again, and hopefully a happier one, for now i bid you all a farewell, and beg you who read to please always show your lover the same respect, love and compassion they give you.