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Lately, a lot o things have been happening...i haven't done a journal in a while since i forgot just how relieved u can feel after creating one...
well, as i was saying, a lot of things have been happening to me lately... i feel as though i've been spending more time in the hospital then at home and it's a bit scary i'll admit...usually, it doesn't bother me, but as often as i've been going w/out any helpful diagnoses or suffiecient help at all, i'm starting to feel nervous... i've been complaining and complaining to myself about how i want to travel again like i used to but...i was feeling so off, i even passed up the recent oportunity to go to venice, italy...VENICE!!! who passes up that? and after i've been wanting to go so long...i just...don't fell up to it...i keep fainting, my hands always shake, i wake up blind untill i hit my head on sumthing then i see just fine...and mister and misses McCalisters must b suffering too because they're the ones paying for all this stuff, cat-scans, MRI's, Phisical and psycological exams, all of these things and no one seems to know what's wrong so it feels like a collosal waste of time...so i've just...well, decided to keep quiet...maek them think i'm ok...cause...i am! i'm sure that this...this is all just...temporary and it'll go away...at least...that's what i'm hoping....desperatly...