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As much as I wish we could be the same kinds of animal, we aren't. I don't know how to explain it or put it into words but I feel it.

I am sorry I can't let you in right now. You want to have someone comfort you and talk to you about the stuff you are going through but I don't want to be that close to you right now. As you know I hold relationships on a higher level and believe you should share and have that speical person as your confidant for these sorts of things. I regret not being able to be that friend for you that is as high or higher than your loved one. We just made up. I need time to feel that want to be your most esteemed friend.

I feel pride knowing you and I know each other so well. I have loved knowing you as much as I do. It must be spaced over time for the proportion that you know someone in my opinion. I know so much about you and have helped you that I feel I need to let you help me again or it will fall out of balance. The stability of our friendship propably will falter if I cannot let you in before I help you again. Give me some time and I think the moment will show itself. I promise you, it will be you I ask. It will be you I share some of my weakest times with.