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hey.
dear boy.
if you're reading this... then you have already tried to find me. or you're just curious...

at this moment, as i'm writing this...
i'm missing you so much. i really do.

our relationship ended so simply. just like that.
i was in a state of shock when i received the message.
you know, it truly hurts me. it really does. it's because...
i really tried my best to ask you if you were fine and you kept on saying you were. boy, did u know that after you told me that we lacked communication, i just went blank. my mind shut off by itself. now you tell me. didn't i try to talk to you? didn't i?

it hurts baby. it does.

but now...
now all i have in my mind is that this love is a lie.
i'm sorry. but then again, what am i sorry for?

we won't ever get back together because i realise it now.
it stares at me right in the eye.
we're over. we really are.

and i don't know you.
i don't know you anymore. and that is going to stay that way.
we can try, but it won't change the way i feel about you.
it won't earn you the trust i once had in you...

too late. too late.
i'm not staying to be with you anymore.
i'm moving on. out and away. from here and from u.

u said i was a personal problem and that was a reason why you werent so good that day.
now u can thank god because your personal problem has decided to leave. it solved itself. happy now?


the next time we meet.
i'll pretend. with a huge smile on my face.
another charade for us.
i'll just pretend as if i didnt know you. or rather, i'll pretend as if you were never there. but i'll be friendly, and smile anyway.