I've made a lot of mistakes in my life. Haven't we all? I've never forgiven myself for most of mine. It's not in my heart to forgive myself. I've tried and failed. My latest mistake was accusing a best friend who means everything to me of stabbing me in the back. I should have asked her before accusing her, but paranoia got it's way. I tend to think negative, I just have a negative mind set. I'm trying to get over it, but it's hard since I've been exposed to it my whole life. I'll never forget what I did to lose her, because it haunts me everyday. I wish she could just miss me as much as I miss her. I thought negative that my best friend would stab in the back, because that was the worst possibility for the situation that occurred. My life used to revolve around this girl. she was my best friend, my soul sister, and now she's not even my friend, but an acquaintance. I thought it was impossible for us to break apart, but I stretched our thread a little too far that. day. She saved my life once and my soul. I owe that girl everything I have, but i don't think she would take it after what I did to her. this may have not been my greatest mistake, but it passes many others by far. I'll never foreget this one, but I'll get over it sometime. Who knows maybe we'll be friends again. That's only if I change though and if she wants me back after that change. I hope that I can be good for her again someday and I hope that her future friends don't hurt her in any way shape or form.
 ThoughtlessEndeavor · Mon Aug 18, 2008 @ 10:20pm · 0 Comments |
