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i had a dream last night.. and before you say, "shut up you tard no one cares about your fantasies with michael," i really thought about this one long and hard. i dremt that i saw alex again at high school... and since i don't want to be allie's friend anymore, i had no one to hang out with other than him. it was like 5th grade again, which made me sort of happy, since it was my old group, but now i'm thinking, what if i do see him in high school? what'll happen? will it be like in the story i'm writing? if it is, i'll have a murder on my hands... well, i can't be blammed for it, because someone else will stab him, but i'll have that to live with for the rest of my life.. if it is like the story... i hope michael will forgive me for writing it.. and i REALLY hope poor alex doesn't die no matter how much i want to kill him for what he did.... or for what i did, but either way, i got hurt. i'm kind of scared, but i can't wait for school to start. because part of me can't wait to find out if i see alex again, and the other part doesn't want to see him because of his charm. *sigh* this calls for some smashing pumpkins music.