Sooo....
There's this boy named Jake and I'm in love with him.
I honestly can't live without him....
He is my boyfriend and he is amazing, nothing short of it.... yet he has his flaw/s.
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Jake
What can I say, we've been together through the thick and thin, 3 years of maddness let's make it last forever. :]
We're dating again and it's a dream come true cause after what you did to me and what I did to you I was scared our friendship was going to end.
In my eyes, you're perfect and you have one flaw... and you've done to EVERY girl you've EVER dated which kinda gives me a sick feeling inside.
You wanted to know why I sigh a lot on the phone? Well here it is.
You're a cheater. =S
You were Kitkat the WHOLE time while you were dating me, cybering with ShadowGoddess92 the whole but that's nothing new because you still do.
You dated me for 3 months, left me promising we'd go back out at the end of the month, and then like 4 days after you left me you asked me to marry you... o.o;
And then 2 days before my birthday I get a lovely little pm from Anny. :]
Quote: Angie for the last 3 weeks now me and Jake have been talking more and text'n so I kno about u and him breaking up and I kno about crazy 8's(I'm part of it). Angie there r things I want to tell u that I'm just not sure if I can...other than Jake has me so confused right now cause of saturday at Jessie(cat's) party and the text he sends me, I will admit I have been nothing but truthful with him for alll of this time that we've talked and text. Angie I'll put it this way when I frist heard of u I was the least bit happy...I mean before u came along Jake was my best friend and my frist/only love, then u came into to the equation and I felt like I was being tosed to the side and being replaced....I hated u more than any one, but then I got to kno u and we became friends and I could no longer hate u because I saw how kind, sweet, and understanding u are. All I could do was cry about how foolish I was. Over time I grew to feel that Jake only wanted to use me to play with...I felt that I had become a toy........Angie the truth is Jake has been the only person I could honestly look into his eye and say "I Love You" and mean it,he's the only person that when I'm with them I feel safe as if nothing/no-one can hurt me, to be honest if it weren't for him monday when I came back to school I would have actually let the man who wished death upon me I would have walked up to him and let him take my life, the guy had his knife and was ready to pull it on me. Angie Jake has saved me from myself he's got me to turn my back on pot, tobacco, and cutting myself all these things I have done and Jake got me to stop before I did any real harm to myself. To be honest he's probally tje only person who has actually loved me or even cared for me so much...not even my own faimly has cared for me as much as he has. Angie for the past 3 weeks he's told me he loves me and I've said the same. At Jessie's party he held me and I told him I was scarried for monday and all he said was...it'll be alright then he kissed me and I kissed back then he said he loved me and I said I loved him to. Angie but I kno aftre this month is over I am to lose him to you once again...but please angie please if you ever do anything for me let me live in denile and finish this month I wish to last please angie. I kno he only hold me to pretend it is you but I want to pretend that he speaks truth to me while it last ...it's the 14th of may now there are only 16 days left of the month let me be happy for now please...I beg of you
And I find it kind of funny because remember when Lauren got cheated on by her bf and you were critisizing him? And then my mom called you a hypopcrit and you said you felt like s**t after that and that night I found out you were cybering and s**t with ShadowGoddess92 and I told you how it hurt and you... yourself called yourself a cheating b*****d. I have the convo saved on my phone. :].
As for the convo with Angel here are little tid-bits of it;
Quote: I don't know when he's lying and when he's tellin the truth. But I think it's too late. Doesn't his girlfriend know about this? I mean shouldn't she know that her boyfriend tells other girls he 'loves' them? I'm just sick of believing him and just feeling like a fool the next day A bf? You might wanna be careful. I even asked him why you hated me and he just blew it off. He was like "I'll tell you later" and just left. I should've just learned the last time. I had really strong feelings for him but he was also with my friend Catlyine and that's where all the drama came in. He picked her over me. Then picked me over her...just back and forth back and forth. I'm just tired of liking him and getting my heart broken over and over again. And he asked me to marry him too but I broke it off. Yeah like sometime last year. But I broke it off...Someone really needs to talk some sense into him. To tell the truth when I saw the Pm I was like "Oh s**t! She's gonna fuss me out again and I don't know why." This is just complicated. I see why my best friend is into girls. Less complicated.
And now I find out I'm not the only girl you've asked to marry which makes me feel as if I'm just another girl. And this week, I've asked you so many times to stop cheating on me but it feels like when I say it means nothing, it meant nothing when Macey said something. Anyways, We'll talk more about this Thursday. ^_^
But, pushing aside everything you've done to me and put me through I can't help but love you. I should be mad at you... I should hate you... but the truth is I don't hurt you. Ok I'm a little mad but I have a right to be.
Jake, I love you. We've both made out mistakes and pushing aside that one little flaw you're amazing and perfect. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
You probably may never read this, but the rest of the world can see it. ^_^
 pudding_cak3 · Tue Aug 12, 2008 @ 03:19pm · 1 Comments |
