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A poem for.....If you want to know Pm me

I sit here watching you live your life in a bed with strings tied to you.
A box controlling every thing in your life.
Am I wrong not to want to be with you?
Am I wrong cause I am scarred to see you?
Am I wrong cause I have nightmares of you leaving me?
No I am not....
I just face reality today that you might die
in a couple of months.
you'll leave me forever.....
I knew this day would come.
But I ignored the signs just thinking it as nothing...
It's hard for me to breath as the nurse holds onto me telling me I should make the best of it.
It's hard for me to look at you and say everything is going to be alright with out bursting out in tears.
Am I right to want to never leave your side?
Am I right to spend every waking moment with you?
Am I right to fall asleep talking to you about old times?
...I don't know yet...
I sit here watching you live you life in these confined walls off fake happiness and lies.
I sit here feeling helpless knowing I can't do nothing but watch you slip out my life
slowly and painfully.

Pm me If it's ok....I wanna give this to someone...