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Why Can't You See That?

a friend noticed I was acting weird,

So he came and talked to me.

He told me I could trust him,

So I told him everything.

I said that I had my death planned out

But was too afraid to do it

He listened to me quietly,

And helped me pull right through it.

Everything was fine again,

But only for a while,

The thoughts soon started coming back,

So I plastered on a big, fake smile.

Eventually I got the help I needed,

I talked to him again.

As for the people who harassed me,

It’s all come to an end.

You said you wanted me to change,

Throw my anger away,

And maybe not be so depressed.

You found out about the time I talked of suicide,

And longed to know what life was like after death.

I told you it was gone,

And it wasn’t coming back.

But you didn’t want to hear it.

I was stuck,

And that’s a fact.

Slowly you started pulling me away

From everyone who gave a damn.

I kept reaching out,

But no one tried to take my hand.

Councilors, Shrinks, Therapists

They’re all just a big joke.

They keep asking you the same stupid questions

Until finally, you choke.

I can try to talk to them,

But I know that they can’t help.

And if I said I thought they could,

I’d be lying to myself.

Do you not understand?

Everyday it’s getting worse.

You’re wasting your time trying to help,

You can never lift this curse.

That’s it; I’m shutting down,

I’ll never love again.

Go ahead, keep on trying,

But I don’t plan on giving in.

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