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So im wrong...I make all the wrong choices all the wrong reasons. I am negative almost constantly..and what is there to say? Maybe im not good enough to my own family..but I feel like...I dont even know...

I am a bad person...My brother is falling into the same path as me. Hopefully he wont make the same mistakes. But he's not going to family things just like I've done. I will probably still make that choice not to go many times but that is my personality.

I dont know what to say...we've gotten into a fight I said "Dont look at me anymore than!! IM NOT YOUR SISTER I WONT HELP YOU! I WONT WATCH YOU!! AND I AM NO LONGER PART OF YOU!!!" I dont think it will last...we'll talk again..but I shouldnt have said it I almost yelled "I WOULDNT HAVE TO WATCH YOU EVER IF YOU WERE NEVER BORN!!!" I just yelled "I!!" We yelled through a door in which he had locked...I dont know why I speak of this but its bothering me right now..really bad..I just wish he wouldnt hurt my aunt again...I didnt plan this..but he screamed "ITS YOUR FAULT" I agree...a lot of times..its my fault, times like this...its like i'd just be better off the face of the earth...I told him I was wrong for the times I never went...because his excuse was "YOU DO IT!! YOU'VE DONE IT!!" Why would he do the same thing? if its wrong..than why..

Good news: Im not going to let myself stay down...