Now, anyways, here's some of my self-reflection. I enjoy writing fanfiction, some essays, roleplaying and other pieces that do not involve literary interpretation such as the other essay that I was forced to write (and it sucked by the way, I believe it did). Anyways, I dislike writing pieces that require literary interpretation such as the last essay where I have to go "OHH MY GOD WHAT DO I THINK THIS MEANS? THE HAT OMGOMG OMG USED IN THE STORY". Nuh uh, do not like those kinds of essays. Anyways, I would like to also point out that I hate writing humor. Yes, I hate writing humor...simply because I'm horrible at it. I'm excellent at writing dramatic pieces especially in fanfiction, but if you ask me to write humor, I will fail miserably. There are only very few pieces that I have been able to get some humor in correctly, but that is not compared to the absolute many I have failed. I would like to point out that I also like writing pieces where the character develops overtime; though many people won't see in my fanfiction since htose pieces tend to be one-shots or I abandon it out of boredon, they will see some of it in my roleplaying if it goes through a large piece of time. THe only problem is that most roleplays end up staying on the same day for two or three weeks (yes, I'm looking at my current RP. >.> wink and people get tired of playing the same day which leads to abandonment.
Oh wait, I would like to point out that Kishimoto is still an excellent roleplay because it IS filled with lots of talented roleplayers. Anyways, away from my condemnation of a minor thing of Kishimoto, back to the rapid write.
I also do not like writing things for a long period of time, but I am trying to change that about myself, since I want to write an epic piece such as my Persona 3 AU fanfiction where one can find in the previous freewrites. Heh heh. I'm good with short and sweet pieces though, though some reviewers will say otherwise. One of them asked me to improve my "paragraph" density which I am inclined to agree. I have a habit of thinking, especially in roleplay, that my paragraphs are larger than they are; I do not have the habit of counting my sentences and I just thought about that now so I should use it the future. Anyways, anyways, anyways, back to the other piece//////rapidwrite.
I think I'm pretty good with my grammar nowadays; I am able to make significantly more complex sentences though I am still a bit weak in correct placement of a colon and a semicolon. Yes, I do know that colon goes before a series when you use it sometimes, but are some of you aware that colons will be placed before you say a "saying" such as "The plural of anecdote is not evidence"? I'm pretty good at using semicolons, and comma splices are rare for me. Koffi, a friend of mine in the class, brought up a rather awesome point about writing where people nowadays, especially in magazines, use "AND" to begin their sentence; now, I understand that it is used and I still think it's incorrect English, but Koffi has a point about its appearance. English, like many things, evolves; maybe one day, "and" will be accepted just as the usage of "their" though it is plural and implies more than two things is used to imply possession of a single person (because their is non-gender assumption thingy). Anyways, I digress and I would like to continue to talk about what I am good at, such as the fact that I am very good at writing dramatic pieces and I am decent at writing battle scenes such as the "Varwin vs Tetsuia" that is located in my profile (I think I managed to make castration funny. >.>)
Anyways, anyways, I am currently going to check in the OOC of Kishimoto RP to see if Fly posted. >>. I am a bit too obsessed with the OOC. Cough. And I just copypasta'd this thing into document 1 so I wouldn't lose it heh heh. >.> That would suck. Rapidwrite loss suck. >.> Heh heh. I am pretty refreshed and not sleepy because of the fact tthat I slept more than twelve hours. I am feeling quite good, thank you very much. aaaaaaah. Posted in the OOC now. Reminding why people should not mess with Hika's precious chocolate cake.
Now, I have probably many failures in writing which are probably invisible to me since I am the writer. It reminds me of Professor Benson's (my current English Composition II teacher) saying,...it goes something like this "If you think your literary competence as a circle, you tend to use things that are on the peripheries of your circle, meaning that you'll make mistakes since it is still new in your minds." Now, I think I have fairly mastered the more basic points of commas such as the usage of the "F-a-n-b-o-y-s" (the required conjuctions when you are using it in combination with an independant clause) and I am mildly competent in spelling, though you might not see it here because this IS a rapidwrite where I am not allowed to correct myq mistakes and I have to continue writing. I have a minor feeling in rapidwriting and freewriting where I need to simply pause and think about what I will say next because in rapidwriting and freewriting, it is highly not advised to stop writing which I amdoing right now. Cool, sandwiches. Goddamn it, random thought.
Back to what I was saying, I feel that my "linguistic competence" (omg, taht's supposed to be used Benson's quote instead of literary competence) is dependant on my level of mental exhaustion. The less mental exhaustion I have, the better I write. Kidna obvious, huh? XD. Anyways, back to what I was saying, I also find that I work best when writing under pressure. I like to write things based in ethics (as the only abstract thign I am willing to write) and science-y stuff. Heh heh. I find my last two essays in the Summer Classes - 1st Semester to be one of my best since I actually loved writing them; one of them is about cheating (which I got an A on) and the other is about, omg forgot, omg forgot, omg, forgot, omg forgot, omg what the hell is it, oh, I remeber, Biotechnology and "its hazards". Pfft, personally I feel a lot of things that people fear about "natural" things are fail. Just because something is natural doesn't mean it is better, botulin toxin is one of the most deadliest things in the world and it is all natural. People just don't seem to get that some of the additives used in food IS important such as calcium propoinate in bread...which is used to halt the growth of bacteria and mold...mold can especially make deadly toxins in bread and bacteria can produce unsightly yellow crap in bread as well. Anyways, I feel like separating this into a new pargraph and my fingers are getting mildly stiff. So I shall now check upon Kishimoto once more. Awww, Fly hasn't posted yet; I want to see Takeo deal with a pissed-off Hika. >.>
Heh heh. I'm so cruel to other characters (especially my own come to think of it)
Speaking of characters, I write, in roleplay, to improve my linguistic competence and literary competence in my fanfictions and fictions. I love to write (except when it becomes required of me or when it gets boring or when canon turns to s**t..naruto...cough...naruto), but I love to see a character develop and change for the better. I also like the manipulative as hell characters and I actually do admire them. Manipulation is a very good skill. Though I don't like their morals most of the time, I can see manipulative people do things for the better of all involved. Professor Slughorn in the Harry Potter series is an example of that; I could try to find real-life examples, but I am too lazy. Heh heh, but I know that they are out there. Most of my older muses have changed too..for the better and the worse. Muse!Tetsuia and Muse!Hika are two of my oldest muses. One is rather serious and the latter is kind yet shy after their conception. Tetsuia's gotten more loony and happy and immature, Hika's toughened up, I have no idea with Muse!Mura has in his head, and Fujitaki is a psycho woman. Yes, she is. Castration as a conversation topic is always disturbing. -shivers-
Now. Back to my rapidwrite of fail, I fail sometimes at using introductory clauses (which act as adjectives) and directing them to their proper object such as "When the president was attacked,..." I can't think of a good one right now; I might come back to it later. Heh heh. yay for rapidwrite. Kekekekekeke. Anyways, I would like to direct my focus to the usage of quotations in writing. I dislike them somewhat, but I know that they are necessary to distinguish your [credentials] Yes, I can't find the right words, so I put in brackets. Heh heh. Another thing I learned from Benson. I already know how to rapidwrite since I learned it from a book, and I do find it useful to power through something I don't want to write such as...essays requiring literary interpretations. By the way, I hated "Catcher in the Rye" because of the literary interpretations my teacher forced me to do. Of course, I don't share happy memories with that teacher either. ******** ******** ******** ********] -sigh- I thought I let it go a while ago. I still have some hatred towards that person. I blame Tetsuia for keeping it. >.>. Yes, I can blame the facet on my personality. I am going to check on Kishimoto again and get a post ready for the next person who posted to Hika. By the way, Mura seems to be a "dead roleplayer" magnet. DX. Nope, Fly hasn't posted yet. Of course, rapid writing is fast. I am going to copypasta this to a document.
Wow, this thing is three pages single-spaced, though most of it is simply crap. Anyways, I try to streamline my writing whenever possible; it makes it easier to understand. However, I also like making my sentences have a complex and pretty structure; am I the only one who finds the usage of semicolon pretty? Heh heh, maybe. I find that my ability to streamline my writing comes unconsciously during the writing process (either that, or I actively look for it when I rewrite in the manner of making it readable and fluid). Nowadays, I suck at citations. When I need to cite something, my mind goes "******** YOU ESSAY" and I need to do something else. >.> THat's another thing I have to improve on. I also find things that I'd rather do when it comes to essays, the most major thing is going on Gaia and roleplaying. Speaking of which, I really really need to reply to my friend's post. Heh heh. XD. XD. XD.
Oh yes, "Make it a great day" comes from my vice-principal Davis from my high school, Bergen County Academies. It is the BEST LINE ever...in real life anyways. >.> Heh heh. Back to finding that post made by Jun.
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Meh, quoting it was not really that helpful for me to reference it. -____-. Goddamn it. -deletes- YES, I'VE DONE EVIL. I HAVE QUOTED IT AND I AM DELETING. GO TO HELL PEOPLE WHO SAY. I did notice Aritsu post again in the OoC. Heh heh. Xd.
Now, I will need to read it again withing the IC thread and make a partial rapidwrite for it; everything seems to go more smoothly...or maybe I am more focused than ever. Hmmm....I wish that my ability to do this came easier for literary interpretation. Heh heh. HOLY s**t. I just realized from reading the post that it refrenced me. XD XD XD.
Hika
Hika giggled nervously at the obvious being pointed out to him. He was slightly nervous around people his own age; he got along with adults a lot easier than...people who could possibly be children. Placing the umbrella on the doorframe, Hika jostled it to the floor from surprise, surprise generated from the brown-haired male deciding to say his name from right behind him. Taking a deep breath to calm his heart, Hika blinked once before saying, "Umm...yes, that would be me."
Eyes quickly rose to meet the other male when he realized what the other male said, "Oh! You're my roommate?" Glancing to the right, a sign that Hika was thinking, Hika was disappointed when he drew a blank when trying to remember his roommate's name, a large blank the size of his journal. Nervously chuckling, he replied, "Sorry...I can't seem to remember your name." He stared at the floor before turning his head to Jun who spoke up.
"Yup...lucky coincidence. Heh heh" Hika smiled happily at Jun.
This thing might need to be modified though, since I feel it is still too short. -_-. Anyways, enough of that for now...back to writing again. Oh, Fly posted in the OOC...in traditional Takeo manner. >_>. XD. Poor Hika, no one takes you seriously. =P. -pats- Anyways, back to writing again, >_<. My ghostly shadow to the lukewarm gloom...nightly dance to th-
Oh, that was from Persona 3's "Burn my Dread" opening song; I just realized that I used to dabble in poetry for a while. I wrote some good ones, some bad ones, and some in between. I truly enjoy writing poetry when I can...but this is the kind of thing I can only write when inspired. I cannot freewrite or rapidwrite a poetic piece...at least, I am incapable of doing so since I cannot comprehend such a thing. Heh heh. Starting a piece of poetry without a strong emotional base is hard...I have an hour before I have to go back to Muscarelle building on campus and go eat lunch. XD. Anyways, I think I have to continue writing about what I have to write...which is....
Meh, I wish the thing is on Webcampus already. I'm too worried that I am doing this wrong. OH MY GOD. I just remembered that we did a "writing" collage in class yesterday; ours was ******** awesome. XD. Lots of pictures and we managed to place an "OVER 9000" joke inside. >.> Heh heh. Wow, my ears are sore and my fingers are slowing down. Heh, I might get carpal syndrome if I'm not careful. XD.
Now, back to the writing, I feel that my writing gets worse if I have to do it again like firefox going "BYEEEEE" or a lost webmail. I sort of lose the flow of the writing. I like rapidwriting because, despite the crap that ends up in the piece with the stream of consciousness, it helps keep flow. XD. Natural flow, anyways. All you have to do is delete the crap and no one is the wiser. By the way, I like writing overpowered OCs....but I also don't publish it. XD. It's more of a guilty pleasure when I write in canon...and it helps cause I get it out of my head. XD. XD. XD. so I can write something more related to the subject. When it comes to writing a fanfiction epic-long, I like to plan it. I like to figre out what all the characters will be. More importantly, IN PERSONA 3, I'm planning to make it in the span of a year. XD. And I'm planning to make a timeline for each character. This will be long, this will be obnoxious, and I pray I don't lose ardor for this piece. Maybe, I should write a timeline in order to be- Meh, not a timeline, my mistake, I think I should write a guideline to follow hwen I write this piece. Speaking of which, I'm interested in writing Ryoji's piece about protecting his brother. >>
Heh heh, I like drama and I like angst. What can I say? I've probably read all the "Harry goes to Azkaban" thingamajigs that have been out there. >_>. XD. Wow, I'm getting tired of writing this. XD. Speaking of which, I cannot write focusedly for long periods of time which is another failing of mine. XD. I'm going to laugh when I see half the things that get deleted. By the way, I'm Benson's exception; I write FAR BETTER than speaking. XD. When I speak, I don't think before I say it. XD. And it'll probably have a lot of "XD'S' when I'm not consciously filtering my mouth from it. XD
Now...I think my mind on this matter has deteriorated. I have already commented on what I like to write and what I dislike writing. What I feel am I good at and what i feel am I not good at. By the way, I'm the type of person who writes in formal language in AIM and Chat rooms; XD. I just enjoy writing and I hate it when people "spk liek th1s" Come on, it takes more energy to figure out what you're going to write and keep it understandable than just typing out the damn word (unless it's micropacosaphylosaurus or antidisestablishmenterrianism or supercalifragilisticexpeialidocious (and yes, I spelled all of them wrong most likely)). Heh heh. Those words I can understad. Trying to shorten "like" to "lik" or "you" to "u", I don't. I'm also extremely judgemental when I think about linguistic competence; if you are in a roleplay and I see spelling errors or grammar errors which are blatantly obvious such as lack of caps, I tend to think less of you; HOWEVER, if I see that you are trying to improve, it places you back to the same level on which I judge people. And no, I don't judge myself...too hard. XD. I find it hard to put my "voice" in formal writing since i've been taught so long not to do so; The obliteration of the usage "I and you" in writing IS NOT TOTAL PEOPLE in formal writing; when you're stating an opinion in formal writing, ITS A LOT BETTER TO USE "I", but if you are making some sort of analysis paper which has no opinion of yours whatsoever (such as a scientific paper), you do not use "I". Heh heh. I think I'm placing commas wrong when it comes to quotes as well. >> I'm very dependant on spell check by the way when it comes to the "ent" words such as dependent and independent XD. Those kidns of errors are not automatic for me to correct in a rapidwrite. XD. I spelled kinds wrong by the way.
I also learned recently that you cannot actualyl see your grammatical errors unless you print the paper out and it is out in front of you. It's a lot harder to find these errors on the cmoputer than on paper. Take it from me. Do it, it'll help you lots. XD. I've been trying to get into the habit of doing it more, and I'm trying to work harder and reducing my cathartic period which is the period where I sipmly need to relax and doing work again. XD. I need to do it during tests and quizzes. AND I REFUSE TO GET B's ANYMORE! XD. or "F's, D's, C's" as well...but that's by proxy. Usually when one says that, they mean an improvement. XD. Checking Kishimoto once more. Oh, by the way, I also have a problem of choosing the right word; I tend to give up if it's too hard and leaving the word there. That's another thing I need to work on. Wow, Aritsu, Liquid Muffins, and Fly are here in the OOC. XD.
Heh heh, anyways, back to my writing. I tend to write majestically when I feel in sync with my writing. For the love of god, I hate sweets. I don't know what I needed to say it, but I just did. I tend to go off tangents when it comes to my writing in earlier days, but I feel that it's been getting more and more focused. XD. The longer i have to write a paper, the more my linguistic competence goes to s**t. For one, it takes me a long time to start the damn paper, and then it takes me a long period of time for me to focus on it, and then it takes me a long time to write the damn term paper. -___-. That's another thing I need to improve on: my ability to utilize time since I have always been a procrastinator. Heh heh.
Though, I'm not really procrastinating now actually, but - Copypasta'd again, this is now 7 pages. XD. Though 5 pages are likely full of crap. XD. Anyways, I'm getting tired of writing or atl east staring at this screen. XD So, I might need to stop and focus on something else before getting back to my normal writing once more. So...without further ado, I shall now focus on my PERSONA 3 AU FANFICTION. MENTAL HOSPITAL HUZZZZZZAH. XD XD XD XD XD XD XD.
Persona 3 AU planning
Holy s**t. I forgot to introduce Elizabeth and Igor. XD.
Pharos: in the beginning of the story will still bring the contract of "staying in the hospital" to Minato. XD. Yay for parallel-ing. xD
Igor: The head of Tatyumi Memorial Hospital. He tries to help Minato with his problems when he can. He only controls the mental ward though.
Elizabeth: Elizabeth is the twenty-year old assistant of Dr. Igor. She's witty, smart, but extremely naive about the outside world since she herself is a patient of the mental ward. She wears a lot of purple and looks like a nurse; most people are unaware that she, in fact, is a patient. She interacts a lot with Pharos, Minato, and Aigis, though she will be interacting with Chidori occasionally.
Koromaru: I was VERY TEMPTED to make Koromaru a feral child, but I figure that he could simply be a dog that helps mental patients regain their sanity...there have been reports of dogs being able to do that, y'know. However, Koromaru will be mainly focused on Fuuka and Aigis; Aigis has an odd habit of seemingly getting whatever Koromaru asks for correct...since she has been in the hospital the longest. No one really knows how old Koromaru is, but he does act very human. The dog has free reign and comes and goes when he pleases, and is part of the shrine. Most people in the area know who Koromaru is because of the kindly priest he used to stay with. XD.
That's all for now. I am not truly planning and HOMG it has been an hour and thirty minutes since I started writing this. Wow, I'm in need of a nap. God, my mind is pathetically weak. XD Anyways, my focus has probaby been improved since i'm here in a school rather than at home; I doubt I could achieve this rapidwriting miracle if I were at home simply with my brother; likely, I'd probably join him in messing around. I guess it's good that i've been brought along thon and that was supposed to be a then and my I should've been capitalized. My fingers are failing to transmit my thoughts now.
Anyways, speaking of which, I hate hand-writing essays, free-writes, rapid-writing, and other works of writing. Though I admit that a notebook is useful for catching the spare thought, I do not believe that it is terribly efficient for any of these. I dislike wirting because you need to consciously think of the lines that you have to write in between; while if you type on a computer, you can usually type without looking at the screen or the keyboard and it's generally faster and more able for freewriting. In fact, I've probably overran my limit of thought with typing instead of writing by hand. XD. Professor Benson said that people have two modes of thinking when writing: memory reclaimation and the part of the mind which demands linguistic competence. If you type quickly, you only focus on the memory reclamatino part, but if you type slowly, you start using linguistic competence which is a slower item and it also kills the flow of your writing...so rapidwriting/freewriting is usually a good bet when writing. I think I shoudl keep a writing journal like what it says in order to examine my piece of writing. In fact, I should write 2 hour- no wait, then it'll feel like I'm obligated too...maybe, when I'm bored, and I have nothing to do. Yes, I ******** up with those commas, but it might be because my writing speed has significantly increased than the other time. XD XD. i seem to be making errors a lto more often. xD.
Heh heh, anyways. My mind is starting to increase in pressure. It's probably the subject which allows me to write about so much. >_>. I think I can examine my writing pretty well. XD. I do not know why I made my journal called "Memento Mori", and yes I'm aware that sentence should be written better using the word "named". XD. But I'm getting mentally fatigued by drawing so much out of my mind. Maybe I should write my overpowered Mura ish Thanatos story in with the HP universe; try killing death please with Avada Kedavra? XD. Heh heh. Anyways, that's the funny guilty pleasure my mind is creating and is an abomination to all writers of fanfic who yells "GARU STU or MARY SUE". I usually shy away from OC stories because most of them are indeed like that. >_> However, some of you just can't shy away from stories involving a "superpower!Harry" in the HP domain. XD. It's just fun seeing "rape"....errr...rape in the OMG UR PWNT sense, not the sexual rape sense. -cough- -______-.
Anyways, this type of writing seems very similiar, no? It's like my profile except the writing in the profile seems a lot more stabler. XD. This one goes off tangents left and right; anyways, sometimes, I have such a burst of creative energy that I am able to get a writing piece done the first time which is amazing for me. xD. Sometimes my roleplay posts are like that, other times I have to check, and other times after that leave me feeling that i need to drill a hole in my head. xD. By the way, I officially dislike earphones with the band connecting them and goes on the back of your head. I much rather use earphones that literaly go intside you ears. XD. Whow, my writing is starting to fail miserably...xD. Heh heh. Must be my fingers unable to keep u[ with the thougths. xD
Ugh, cycle recycle's character really makes me want to put "Pharos" into the RP. XD. -sigh- Sadly, I'd be sued by ATLUS till I only have lint left...adn then they'll take that. XD. Heh heh. XD. I use XD a lot. Wow. Heh heh. >_>. Anyways, I'm mentally fatigued, my fingers are tired, I'm not surew wh I'm tryping XD. So many errors. I'm going to stop NOW.
