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The memories of the past haunt me whenever I close my eyes...
... that's why I don't sleep anymore...
Again I layed on the roof tonight, starring off in to the endless sky, seeing the stars shine. I was tired, but I couldn't sleep. I don't need to sleep, but I wanted to. I wanted to have a falce sence of rest...
My eyes did close, but only for a few moments. Those moments were enough for a familiar face to flash in front of me, dragged out of my memories. "Xen?" I whispered and opened my eyes. That's right... it's been almost 900 years from when I last saw him. There was no doubt about it, he was dead...
Who's Xen? a boy I had a crush on... He was nice to me, but I wondered if he even knew about the exsistance of my feelings back then...
...Ever heard about reincarnation?
The sun finally awakened. Or the planets side has finally turned to the direction where the sun is, if you want me to be correct. I sat up and looked at my list. A hostage will die today at a bank robbery.
I jumped off the roof and safely landed on the ground. Decided I want to take a walk, just like normal people do. No one could see me ofcourse. Or that's what I thought. It seemed that small children and animals were aware of my presance, but couldn't see me quite clearly. Pondering about why they could, I finally reached the bank. And just in time too, the robbers had just headed in. I followed them and looked around for the victim...
There he stood. A rush of warmth spread through my body the second I saw him. He looked just like Xen. The boy I loved while being a human.
It's funny how such emotions can last 900 years...
He looked around, confused. Shooting and yelling was heard, panicing people ran around, getting shot. None of them will die.... exept him...
I flew up closer, looking at the deep, sky blue eyes that always would calm me when I needed them the most.
...My face felt wet. Startled by this strange sensation I lifted my gloved hand to my cheek and inspected the moisture that was now resting on my finger tip. A tear? I haven't cried for so long, I forgot I could...
Suddenly one of the robbers grabbed the boy and held a gun by his head, ordering them not to move.
I looked at the boy again with sadness hovering around me. I saw his scared eyes lock on to my fighure...
... he whispered my name...
I suddenly gasped and stopped my hand from touching his face.
A woman tried to run. I quickly knew what that meant "I'm sorry!" I almost screamed as I leaned closer to him and kissed him on the lips. This was my first and last kiss that I ever gave Xen.
The robber noticed the woman and pulled the trigger, ending Xens life just like that.
People yelled, screamed and gasped. I just stood there, looking at the lifeless body. I cursed my emotions, they ran wild. I pointed my staff at the robber, wanting to kill him like the drunk driver from the other day but...
I saw it...
I saw his life... his familly... his beloved daughter... his nice wife... the new born son... starving... that's why he was doing it...
"I do not judge... I just dish out the judgement...." I whispered to myself... calming down...
I looked at the motionless body again... a butterfly appeared...
Somehow... I smiled... I do not know why I did it... it wasn't anything good... The butterfly flew away quickly, to float in the garden where all the other tortured spirits fluttered... my job there was done... I looked at the robber again... I senced the guilt he felt... I knew how sorry he was for doing all this...
That was all I needed to calm down and finally start to move... "when your time comes, I won't hesitate though..." I whispered heading out of the building, thinking if I will ever see those sky blue eyes again...
I will never close my eyes again...
 Indigo Wing · Fri Jul 04, 2008 @ 08:40am · 1 Comments |
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