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What is it about summer nights that saddens me? They always seem to evoke some depressive response from me. Maybe it's loneliness. I don't really have a reason to be lonely. I've got family, even though I'm kind of distant, and great friends. Maybe I just need to get out more. Really make an attempt at finding a job, instead of just putting in a couple of applications a month. Maybe I wouldn't feel so worthless if I had a job and became a somewhat productive member of society. I need to set some real goals for my future and do my best to achieve them. But the problem is, come tomorrow I won't do that. I'll be on the couch playing Halo and hoping for something to just fall into my lap. I really need to start translating my words into actions. Maybe I should start by getting some sleep and not staying on the internet so much. If all goes well I'll probably only be on Gaia a couple of times a week, if that. I think I'll look around now and see if anyone's hiring. Since I'm on the internet anyway, why not use it for something that matters.

-Gil