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My heart pounding slowly.My head swimming with sad memories.It was late,I started crying.I just entered my room last night,when all of the sudden the phone rang.I answered the phone."Hello?"I said.My heart missing a beat,begging in my head,'please don't be bad",thinking that over and over.Then my heart shattered when i heard my ex-boyfriend's voice.The one that caused me pain,my painful love.I started to breath unevenly and hung up the phone so fast and ran to my room crying even more.i walked into my room,that had messed up bed,clothes every where on the floor,folded clothes in the dresser.I jumped into my bed and went into a little ball crying all the pain away,until i hear a police helicopter over my head.Frightened with anxious eyes,I looked out of my blind's in my bedroom,my horror just begun.I saw two police officers, a man and women,and a police dog in my backyard.I was still staring up at the helicopter,noticing its lights searching through my neighborhood.Scared of whats hidden in my backyard.I was starting to scream,my heart was pounding faster and faster,my breathing was going away.My heart suddenly missed a beat.I ran down the stairs,panicking.I asked the police calmly as possible what the problem is.For a moment they just stared at me.In their eyes I say them wary and tired,like i was,then all of the sudden they disappeared.But someone was still there.He was about my age and he was just standing there smiling at me with his clear white teeth.Then my atmosphere changed to being happy and nice,then he disappeared.Everything went dark,I was starting to lose consciousness.


I woke somehow on my bed.I got out and started getting ready for school.Then I rode the bus and wanted to cry when i saw my ex.When we got out of the bus i ran trying to hold my tears when i bumped into someone."Sorry,''I said.Then I looked up and saw the guy that was near my house last night,smiling at me for awhile then he frowned."Whats wrong?"he asked.I stared at him for awhile noticing how his eyes were a beautiful dark blue,his hair was black,then i snapped out of it cause he was looking confused."Nothing,"I said and tried to hide the sadness in my eyes and make sure I don't cry,but he made sure I didn't hide my eyes or run for it by grabbing my hands in a strong grasp."No,its something.What's making you so sad?"he asked.Then the bell ringed and i finally got free from his grasp because he let go of me."See you later,"I said with a smile.Then he smiled back and disappeared.Then I realized my hands were freezing from his grasp.I then just ran to class.The day in my periods became so slow,then i walked to lunch with my friends,then I saw him sitting in a table across from us.I didn't even know his name and i don't think he knew mine,yet he was staring at me and when I finally looked up he was smiling at me and with his finger he told me to go over there.My friends gasped."What is with you guys?"I asked."He never asks anyone to sit with him he usually sits with his brothers and sisters over there,"one of my friends said pointing at a group of 2 girls and 2 guys staring at there food blankly."The long black haired one is Rachael,the one with brown hair is Chris,the short red hair is Veronica,and the one next to her is Orlando,"my other friend told me.The i turned my head to him and i went to him.He smiled and asked,"why don't you sit with me?"I did.I looked down for awhile,then when i looked up he was glaring at someone,i followed his eyes and he was glaring at my ex.My eyes widened in shock and when i looked back at him he was looking at me smiling."So why were you running away so fast out of the bus?You looked upset."he said,while playing with my fingers."Well before I answer your question you need to answer mine,"I said.He looked up and smile a warm smile."Ok,what is your question?"he asked.I looked down and blushed."What's your name?"I asked.He laughed."My name is Matt,and you look beautiful when you blush,"he said with a smile that i loved.I blushed more and I heard his quiet laughter."What's your's?"he asked.I smiled up at him."My name is Ginny,"I said.He laughed for a moment,then his face went serious."Ok,Ginny.Why were you running away so fast out of the bus?"he asked again.I looked down and hanged my head."Its a embarrassing story,"I said."Please?,"asked with beautiful brown eyes.She sighs and tell him the story."Well,I fell in love with a guy who I thought loved me back but I guess not because he dumped me on the internet and I asked him what did i do to annoy him so i can stop,but he told me not to change cause he hates people who change for other people and so here i am broken hearted and feeling this way until i can move,if i ever move on."Suddenly i found myself on his lap and him holding me and trying to comfort me."I'm sorry that happened to you,Ginny,"he said.She paused for a moment and then smiled and hugged him."Thanks for your concern,"I whispered.He pulled me back and smiled and his smile took my breath away.Then suddenly the bell ranged and I jumped off his lap."I'll see you later,Matt"I said and smiled then before i realized it he was at my side and was holding my hand and laughing."No.First I take you to your class then we see each other later,"he said with a smile."Your not getting rid of me that easily now,Ginny!" I laughed. "What makes you think I'm getting rid of you?I just don't want to annoy you away from me." I smiled.He smiled back.He walked me to class and suddenly he was leaning in and in his eyes i say pain and sorrow. I reached my hand on his face and looked in his eyes."Whats wrong,Matt, are you alright?"I asked. He looked at me and then he said,"I just can't stand seeing you sad. It really hurts." I gave him a kiss on the cheek."Its alright, love,cause you just saved me." He smiled and gave me a tight hug and left.


After school I did my homework and chores then I ran to my computer and read the message that caused so much pain and sorrow, then the doorbell rang and I ran still having tears in my eyes then was shocked to see Matt at my door.I suddenly was falling and I was unconscious for awhile and then I woke up in Matt's arms and saw his panicked face and was surprised when he kissed me. "You got me so worried, Ginny!" I looked up at him and said, "I'm sorry, love, I was just shocked." I gave him a smile. "I'm alright now." I got up."Would you like something to eat or drink?" I looked back at him and his face was in pain. "Or maybe not,"I said. He grabbed my hand and took me to my couch and held onto me. "I have something to tell you that's a secret that I want you to know only,"he said while stroking my arm and me getting goosebumps. I shivered with pleasure. "Whats wrong, love? What would you like to tell me?" I asked. He stared at me like he was debating."You promise you won't tell anyone?" he asked. I grabbed his hand and put it to my heart."I promise you with this slow beating heart that I could never tell anyone your secret,"I said and kissed his hand. He smiled and kissed me on the cheek and whispered in my ear,"I can always trust you." He took a breath and held onto me. "Well Ginny, I am a vampire that never thought to have found love until I met you and now I can't help but love you for the way you are and you are always on my mind. When you smile I just can't help but smile too," he said and smiled at me with happiness in his eyes. I reached up to touch his cheek and gave him a kiss on the lips. "I love you too and can't help but care about you. You are my life now and I can't breath without," I said. He chuckled. "I guess we loved each other since we saw each other. Love at first," he said. I smiled and started to cuddle with him."I hope it lasts," I said. He looks at me with confusion in his eyes. "What do you mean, Ginny? he asks. I smiled up at him and strokes his cheek."Nothing you need to worry about, love," I said. He looks at me with a strong look. "No, it's something I do need to know because it's hurting you. So tell me right now, Ginny! he said. I took a deep breath. "Well my love towards a person I date usually gets them annoyed so I'm scared ours won't last," I said with tears going down my face. Then I turned up on his lap in his arms. "Ginny, it will last. I promise," he whispered in my ear. I smiled. "We'll see," I said. He let out a moan of frustration. "Why do you think this way, Ginny?" he asked me.