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This week, it just hasn't been one of the best for me. And, i know, lots of people say that. I say it alot too. But, honestly, i think the most drama has happened lately that it has ever done.

First though, you must understand, i have alot of lives online.

--GAIA--
As my previous entries have already said, There has been some guy trouble. Me and him are ... somewhat... friends now. I'm not sure how to put it. But he makes it hard for me to trust him.
As for some of my other friends, they've just been fun to talk to.
Sure, some of them are having troubles. Again, won't mention names, but He's going through something and it hurts me to see him like how he is. I just wish i could do something for him.

--WETPAINT--
Well, what is there NOT on there that's not considered drama? One of my friends from real life is on there and alot of the members and her are talking about things that i think she shouldn't. Mainly, it's about me. I'm hating the attention.

--Google--
Okay, here's the biggie. One of my best friends, i met on Wetpaint, well, i talk to him alot lately on Google. He's fun to talk to. Random at times, but none of the less, he always knows how to cheer me up. Today though, he seemed... distracted.
He kept talking, like usual, and was random, like always. But, near the end, he seemed to be freaking out on me. Near the end, when he had to leave, he asked if i could get on later, he had something to tell me. I said sure. I got there, maybe a few minutes later. I was amazed. He got straight to the point, he asked me out. I started freaking out. I had one of my other friends, Child, talking to me at the same time. As well as my friend V texting me. I ended up telling him i had a boyfriend already. But, just the way he seemed afterwards, it was like he really was sad about it.

--Real Life--
The most drama. Jeremy, me and him text eachother Constantly. The 17th was actually our 5 month anniversary. It was sweet, he was the one who reminded me... But, we haven't seen eachother since school, which was back in May. And now i won't see him til August.
V keeps bringing up Matt, the scumbag. I don't know why, but i still feel "emo" when someone, anyone, brings him up. I just wish i wouldn't. I have Jeremy, why would i need to think of Matt?
Hannah, one of my best friends, cousin of Matt, actually tried to kill herself. I'm not supposed to know though. Matt told me on the last day of school. It kills me to think of her like that.
Kaleigh, she's going to be a model. Or atleast, she's taking the classes for it. I'm proud of her. She's always wanted to be one. But she didn't like the fact that she had to die her hair back to Brown and close her ears up. (she had her ears pierced to where the gauge was huge enough for a pencil to go through)

--My Life--
Everyone seems to want to talk bad about eachother behind their backs... to me.
They'll say in the group, "if you ever have a problem with me, just tell me, i don't mind."
But then they turn to me later, and talk horribly and complain on and on about that other person.
I hate being the monkey in the middle. It makes me feel like that's all i'm good for.
I know so many things about all of them that i'm afraid one of these days i'm going to get mad and spill everything.


As you can tell, this is just what's happened lately... i'm scared to think of what's going to happen later, or even during the summer...
But, hey, what can you do? cry