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hey guys. get ready for a long one again. Here we go. *sigh* Yesterday me and my family were everywhere! My emotions were everywhere too. It was a normal Sunday, Church until about 2:00. This is emotion 1 for the day: Indifference. The same as I always am. After that, Mom forced us to go my great Uncle's church for a program. My brother was off of work amazingly. Since we were literally blocks away, we decided to stop by our old house. The neighborhood itself was a mess since we moved about 8 yrs. ago now. But our house was among the ones that hadn't been torn down or boarded up, but still, it was a wreck. This began emotion 2: Depression. I had my mp3 and Innocent Sorrow began to play. It fit the situation. The people who used to be our neighbors wer still there and they were fine so that cheered me up a little. Next the indifference returned as we sat at a wake for someones family at my church. But finally, as we were supposed to be on our way home, my dad started talking about some long time friends of ours. My brother had to go that way anyway so he could drop his car off to get some work done so we dropped by. Before we even got there, emotion(s) 3 saved me: pure joy and happiness! I hadn't seen these people in literally the last 5 or 6 years! I was so happy because I'd get to see my childhood friend again after soo long! Her name is Shelby. Our dads work at the same place but they only see each other every so often. Me and Shelby pretty much grew up in diapers together! We were both in the daycare program at their jobs they had long ago. We were almost inseperable! The last time i remember her face, we were barely 10 and still naive to the world as far as we knew. Now we were both 16 and had matured. I expected her to be a good looking girl. I was wrong. She'd grown up to be a beautiful young lady. Much different from the Shelby i knew. I was a lot taller than her now. I couldn't help but notice that her mom was talking about how much we loved each other and never stopped talking and playing together. But as we sat there and caught up, me and her didn't say much. It was like we were still the same, thinking the same thing. She was doing very well and was about to start a 9 week internship program at her church. Matter-of-fact, i think it starts today. When we left, we all hugged and promised more visits and stuff. I hugged her close and whispered "Good luck. I love you!" And she nodded and replied "Yeah. You too." We didn't even have to say how much we missed each other after so long. The last event for the day brought back emotion #2: depression. We went to the cemetary where my grandmother was buried. The same grandmother who's house was now in shambles. My mom said she never came here much because she knew her mother wasn't there, but always in our hearts and in heaven playing bingo everyday. Before we left, I laid my hand on the cold tombstone and two tears fell on the engraved rock. Only two. dyron out. ninja ninja