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The Journey of a Lifetime Chapter 4
I thought I heard something. I couldn’t define what it was but I definitely heard something. It was coming from afar. I didn’t know what was making the sound nor did I know what the sound meant. All I knew was that I must have been walking toward the noise because the noise was slowly getting louder. I wasn’t actually trying to walk but it seemed like the noise was calling to me. I was confused. Why was I walking toward the noise although I wasn’t even trying to walk toward it? I tried to stop walking but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t stop but instead I went faster so I tried to go faster but instead of going slower like I thought would happen, I went even quicker. I was getting irritated. I was walking although I wasn’t even trying to walk although I was walking. The thing that controlled my body seemed nice and gentle. It didn’t put me to the edge of my strength. It seemed to feel when I was tired and when this happened it made my body stop and let me have control over my body until I had enough energy to carry on, and then it would take control again.
I decided not to try to resist the pull of the sound and instead just enjoy the lovely sky. The night sky seemed to be covered in a blanket of stars. The stars twinkled in their own little way. Every star making its own beautiful, bright light. It relaxed me and soon enough I noticed that I was no longer walking. It was around the middle of the night when I figured this out but I did. Once I noticed it I fell to the ground and drifted into a deep sleep within seconds.
I dreamed about so many things that when I woke up it still seemed like I was in a dream. I started to get up from the place I had fell down in exhaustion last night and started to walk, again not on my own will. I again got angry and tried to force myself from walking but the same thing happened, I went faster instead of stopping. I was getting even more irritated and angry but then something hit me from behind. I suddenly was flipped around and then I slashed at my enemy before even seeing my enemy. Again I wasn’t controlling my body; it felt like I was being controlled by a different mind. I let it take over because I wasn’t used to fighting and obviously who ever this mind was it knew exactly how to fight. It was awesome. I felt strength running through me. Strength that was hard to beat with any magic or even any other strength. It was a confusing strength. I couldn’t control it but instead it controlled me. Within a minute my enemy was dead and so the mind that was in control of my movements made me go forward toward the north.
Day after day this was how it went. When I woke up the mind made me travel. If I encountered any thing that tried to stop me the mind moved my body so that the enemy would die. Once the night came and I was to exhausted the mind would stop controlling me and I would fall to the ground and into a deep sleep. Then when I woke up the process would start all over again.
It was tiring. I don’t know why it was so tiring but it was. By the time I went to sleep it was more like passing out. Surprisingly though, I still continued day after day but suddenly something changed.
I woke up and had control of my body. I waited for a few seconds before rejoicing. I had control of my own body again! This was something unexpected but something even more surprising happened later that day. I was attacked by a grizzly bear. I actually wished with everything I had that the mind that had been in control of me for the past weeks, would suddenly take control of my body again so that I wouldn’t die but sadly, the mind didn’t take control.
I looked up in horror, fear, and confusion. The confusion came from not knowing what to do, the horror came from never seeing a grizzly bear this big, and the fear came from both of the factors of never fighting a grizzly bear before and I didn’t know how to defeat it. During the time I was pondering what to do the grizzly swung its massive paw with claws unsheathed at me. He sliced through my side. I was in pain and I was confused but then I heard a voice in my head say, “Next time don’t let the grizzly bear attack you first. You have to get the first attack or else you won’t be able to defeat it.” I paused for a second and let the thought sink in before I pounced on the bear, going straight for the throat.
The voice spoke again, “What are you stupid! You are supposed to go for the legs!” Once I heard the voice say this I went for the back leg of the grizzly. I actually cut into the bear’s leg. Again the voice talked to me through my mind, “hmm….. I think for this bear you might want to try to go for the bear’s side….”
Again I did as the voice said and I went for the right side of the bear. I surprisingly moved faster than the bear could react and I put a huge gash across its side. It roared out in agony and then collapsed to the ground. It had lost too much blood already. Within about thirty minutes it stopped breathing. I didn’t know what to do but just walk away, so I did. I just simply walked away.
I went to a stream to drink and then caught a rabbit to eat and once I sat down to eat I heard the voice in my head again. This time it said, “Please help me. Keep traveling. I don’t want to need to be in control but I will if I need to.” I waited for a little bit and then decided to do as the voice asked.
I started to walk toward the way it told me to go. I walked for about a quarter of the day and then suddenly I felt thirsty again and I asked the voice if I could go and get some water from a nearby stream.
The reply I got was very surprising. “I was wondering when you would ask,” said the little voice in my mind. I thought in shock, “What?! How did you know I was going to ask that?”
“How? Why I just listened to you,” said the voice.
“How did you listen to me? And what the heck is your name?” I asked in confusion.
“My name is Katamay. How did I listen to you is a simple enough question. I simple heard your thoughts. I am one who can hear someone’s thoughts if they let me and you let me,” said Katamay.
“Oh. Okay. I am still confused at how you are talking to me,” I said curiously.
Katamay started to laugh at this and then said, “Aw. You are easily confused. I say something that isn’t at all confusing and you still get confused from it. Ha! Anyway, the reason I can talk to you through your mind is because I am you. At least I am for right now.”
“What do you mean right now? Wait a second, what do you mean you are me?” I asked still being confused.
Katamay rolled her eyes before saying, “I am you because right now you are going to take me to my body. Therefore I am you right now. My soul inhabits your body. I know your thoughts and you know mine. That is why you can hear me and I can hear you speak through thoughts.”
“Oh. Alright then, I think I understand now,” I said now understanding who had controlled my body for the past few weeks. Then I asked, “Wait, you are the one that has been controlling my body for a while, aren’t you?”
“Yes, I am. Good job! You finally figured something out on your own,” replied Katamay.
I growled at Katamay and then said, “Shut up! I am not stupid.” After I said this I growled some more and then bared my teeth at Katamay. I was angry and all of my friends know not to get me angry because no one can stop me once I am angry. I didn’t know how to let my anger go other than to lunge at the nearest tree. I slashed at the tree and cut in clean in half. I was still mad so I tried to control myself but I couldn’t. I felt Katamay trying to hold me back by controlling my body but my anger was to much. Suddenly every thing became dark and then I passed out.
When I woke up I felt my body was cool and my mind was calmed down. I looked at the tree I had cut down earlier and then everything came back to my memory. I had been taken over by the other part of me. I then decided to tell Katamay something that was very important.
I called out to her in my thoughts, “Katamay. I have something to tell you.”
“What is it that you need to tell me?” asked Katamay.
“I don’t know how to say this but, I hmmm…… You aren’t the only soul I have inhabiting my body,” I said, not knowing what else I could say.
“What do you mean? Wait I haven’t even asked your name! What is your name?” asked Katamay.
“I mean exactly what I just said. Have you not felt the presence of another soul within me?”
“No. I didn’t notice it. I was so naïve to not notice it. I mean its strength is more immense than any one I have ever met before. Was that all you were going to tell me? Again I will ask, what is your name?”
“I wouldn’t say you are naïve. I was trying to hide its strength from you. Thus this is the reason you haven’t felt its strength. I didn’t want you to know but I guess if you are staying inside of my mind then I guess you need to know. I have something that is called a shiku. A shiku is a soul that has to find a place or a body to live in. I guess in a way it is kind of like you Katamay but this one is evil and bad. It isn’t bad for your body but it sometimes tries to take over your body which then can be dangerous to other people. My shiku took over my body and that is when I cut down the tree and then passed out.”
Katamay looked at me weird and then started to laugh. I looked at her in a confused way. “I wasn’t joking. I mean it and I am not lying in any way. All that I have just said is true,” I said to Katamay who stopped laughing once I said this.
“You aren’t joking are you? Well, I can’t say I understand what this shito is. Wait doesn’t that mean disciple in Japanese? Wait can’t shito also mean the reason for spending money? Neither one of those definitions make sense.” Katamay said to me.
“First of I said shiku and yes that can mean district or streets. It can also mean verse or it can also mean to spread out or lay out. None of these definitions are what shiku means though. Shiku is a combonation of the two Japanese words shikyo and haaku. Shikyo means death and haaku meaning grasp so if you put the two together you get “death grasp” or “grasp death”. Either one of these are true in a way. A shiku is a soul that’s body s dead. The “grasp” a living body so they can live but also the body that has a shiku in it, “grasps death”. If that body wants to get rid of the shiku then they can if they go about it the right way. The one who’s body has the soul of a shiku in it “grasps death” because for the shiku to become one with the person or creature the creature has to fight the soul of the shiku and if the creature lives than the shiku has found a place to live. They grasp death because before they fight the creature that the shiku wants to abide in has to talk to the the real body of the shiku which is of course dead so the creature has to go to the place of the living dead. Although it is called the place of the living dead it really isn’t. It is really hard to explain.”
“Wow. I still don’t understand a word you just said. Wait a second, again I will ask you for the third time, what is your name?” said Katamay.
“My name doesn’t matter!” I said ferociously although not meaning to make it sound as harsh as I did make it sound.
I was getting angry. I didn’t know how else to explain it and I definitely didn’t want to tell Katamay my name. I was just not making sense to her. I started to walk away to the stream that I knew was close because I heard the water running softly.
Once I started to walk toward the stream Katamay tooked control over my body and said, “I don’t want to have to take control of your body but I am asking simple questions but I haven’t got any answers. Look, we are one body right now. I need to understand you just like you need to understand me. That is the only way both of us can live through this journey. Now, I asked you your name. Would you be kind enough to give me it?”
“I told you! My name doesn’t matter!” I said not meaning it to sound as harsh as it really did.
“I am so sorry that I am getting you mad but like I said. We need to understand each other so that we can get through this journey, alive. Now please give me your name for that is the first place to start so that I may understand you,” Katamay said in a soft, kind voice.
“No! I will not. I have made up my mind and I refuse to tell you my name!”
“Please, I need to know! Please, I am not trying to be rude nor am I trying to make you mad. I am only trying to help and also trying to understand who you are.”
“I do not wish to let you know my name. I barely know you and I am not ready to give my name to you,” I said now controlling my temper.
“What ever your name is then perhaps there is a reason you don’t want to tell me your name?”
“Yes, there is a reason.”
“Well then what is the reason for not telling me your name?” asked Katamay.
I stopped to think before I said anything. After about an hour I finally replied,” The reason I didn’t tell you my name is simple. I don’t have a name.”
“You don’t have a name! Why don’t you have a name?”
“My parents thought I was cursed or something like that so they didn’t give me a name.”
“Oh, I am sorry to hear that but if you could pick your own name what would you want to be called?” asked Katamay who was trying to make me feel better and also trying to reassure me. I thought for a little while and then sat down to think some more. A few minutes had passed when I came up with a name. I spoke to Katamay in a soft voice saying, “I think I would like to be called Nightmoon.”
“If you don’t mind me asking, why do you want to be called Nightmoon?”
“Well, my mom’s name was Whitemoon while my dad’s name was Nightstorm. Another reason I like the name Nightmoon is because I have a greyish moon-shaped thing on my chest while the rest of my body is a shadowy color.” I said now remembering that I used to have parents. I was sad because I barely even remember what they looked like. I only new that my dad was a tiger and so was my mom. Most tiger’s names say something about there appearance and since I am a black tiger, which is extremely rare, I should have “night” in my name but I also have a grayish mark on my chest that looks like a moon so I should have the word “moon” in my name also. Therefore, I am only trying to name myself like my ancestors would name me. I want a name based off of my own appearance.”
“Hmm. That sounds like a good name for you and by the way, you a tiger? I thought you were a panther. How can you be a tiger with black fur? I mean there are tigers with white fur but I have never seen a tiger with black fur. Are there really such a thing?”
“Yes, surprisingly there are such a thing. Just look right in front of your very own eyes and you will see proof that there is such a thing has a tiger with black fur. They are extremely rare though. There have only been two others tigers with black fur in all of history. I am the third. Each one of the black furred tigers was a great and powerful tiger. Some even were able to kill many creatures with high strength with only using one of their claws. I think I am a disgrace to the other black furred tigers because I can’t even kill one creature let alone many creatures.”
“Oh really, you can’t even kill one creature? Well, obviously you can because you killed that grizzly bear, now didn’t you?” asked Katamay trying to make Nightmoon feel a little bit stronger than she made herself feel.
“Well, yes I did kill the bear but you were the one who told me how,” I stated trying to make it sound like she wasn’t depressed although it showed through the inflection in her voice.
“Well, I am pretty sure that if you had to do it again you could do it within the same time it took you to kill the other bear,” Katamay said trying to make Nightmoon feel strong.
“Ya right! I couldn’t kill another grizzly bear even in a thousand years! I would still not be strong enough to nor even smart enough to kill it.”
“Of course you could! I mean you would be able to any day! I am here to help you, that is why I am here therefore, I would help you kill any enemy you have! Stop saying that you are useless! No one is completely useless. Trust me; I thought I was completely useless but look at me! I am here whenever you need me to save your black furred hide!” exclaimed Katamay who was now getting frustrated and angry.
“I know you are here if I need you but that is exactly what I was saying. I have to count on others more than I should need to if only I followed the same ways as the other black furred tigers!” I exclaimed while starting to cry.
“Stop sounding so pitiful! I will not deal with it!” said Katamay. Once she said this she took control of my body and took me to a nearby stream. The noise of the stream, once I got there, relaxed me and once I was relaxed Katamay let me have control over my body again. I decided to lie down and rested a little bit. Closing my eyes, I suddenly drifted off into my deepest chambers in my dreams.
P.S. Please comment. I like comment even if they are rude. Tell me what you think of it and I hope you like it.
 Fangthorn · Mon May 26, 2008 @ 08:48pm · 0 Comments |
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