To tell the truth, I've been scared to death. I haven't been well since I had pneumonia. I've become deaf in one ear, I've gained a fluid in that same ear, and have a ringing in my ear. Now tell me that isn't scary. It's even scarier because I looked up my symptoms on a trusty web site, and it could be permanent. It could be something very small, or something big, like an aneurysm. Sure, I'm going to the doctor sometime this week, but I'm not sure I want to know what's wrong. which is another topic. I'm not sure of what I want anymore. I'm lost in life again...it's a scary feeling.
I also can't seem to find a college I'm going to go to. I'm not sure if I can live on my own, get a job. I'm going to be a senior next year, what if I never get to see my high school friends again? What if I end up being a complete failure? What if I can't get a job to support myself and my cat? The fact that I will be a senior, and will have to start working my way away from my family, and away from the support they give me. It's all too much at once.
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Hey there. Here's where I tend to post what's on my mind at the moment. Go figure a lot of it ca be pretty deep. Try not to read too much in to it. I'm generally blunt about things.
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