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Now I can't even rant on myspace because my mother will see it. I mean I can in my blog but no where else and I don't like that. I don't want my mother on my myspace. I can't say my sexuality because she'll see and I just hate this all! I feel like I'm about to cry right now.

My boyfriend's parents don't trust either of us and hell if I know why. You know what....hell if I care. Every parent of anyone I come in contact with doesn't like me. I don't even care anymore. I guess I'm just a b***h who can't be trusted by adults. I ******** hate this. Tears are in my eyes right now because of all the s**t that is happening. I can't even relate to anyone because I don't know anyone go through the same things I am.

I feel very alone right now. Zak can't do anything to help except be a shoulder to lean on and I'm glad he's there but I need someone to relate to and I can't find that. I feel trapped and lost right now.

I want to be nice to everyone but I've got so many problems right now that I don't know what to do anymore. I have been trying, though people don't notice but when I act different people say things and I...I don't even know anymore. I don't know! I just need someone who can say they've been through it and it'll get better because they know but...I can't find someone who can say that.

I can't even cry anymore because my family asks what's wrong. I can't tell them...they don't know....they don't know at all. God I feel so alone....

EDIT: 8:40: I HATE LAURA! She is a mother ******** b***h and my entire family is ruining my life. God...well I'm going to take a long hot bath now and try to relax....