Well, my mum had another one sided conversation with me, resulting in her inevitable bashing of myself, and aspects of my life.
The reason for the lecture was completely valid, it being about my forgetfulness leading to another chaotic mess.
But I've been working on it.
Which she did acknowledge, though after I exploded on her.
Anyway, like most times, she brings up in the beginning "three (or w/e) points" and elaborates on these points, bringing in all the relevant things.
Then, as she warms up, she starts bringing in examples. Malice begins to creep into her voice, and she unknowingly (though she does know, shes just denies it) rubs salt into my open wounds, and beats and slices my entire being to s**t.
Its not just what she says, its how she says it, like I'm an inferior, stupid, slow minded being who can't remember past events (which she frequently brings up, all the time, whenever she starts moving off topic, which she always does) and hasn't changed since the age of eight or around there.
Shes so caught up in what she thinks, she never takes into account other minds. Everything is how her mind lays it out. Its impossible for anything to be different. She can't see it. At all.
And today, shes made me cry again. I'll of course forgive her. I mean, the lecture wasn't void, she just can't do it without making it painful for the other person.
Other things, like when...well...I won't mention it. I'm already writing this, but I don't know if I'll ever, EVER forgive her for it.
Ever.
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