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Hey all, well Ken, the guy that i really love, even though no-one thinks i should, just said today that he doesnt want to date. That make my hart brake into a few pieces. But a few seconds later about half of them mended. He said he didnt want to date Anyone So i had to feel some what better after he said that. I really love the kid and i look out for him as best as i can. I will always be there for him and i hope he will always be there for me as well. I want to talk to him. About everything. Like how i feel and what i want, and everything. I was talking to my friend jazz about it, and i find it kinda wired but hr and ken have been talking some lately. So when i was tlking to her about some of the things that i hope for and want, she smiled and said ok ^^. So what i am thinking is that she is going to be trying to talk to him about it. I guess its ok for friends to do that. Its normal. As long as she doesnt say it all, cuz i want something to talk to him about too. I dont want to lose him. Last night i asked him if we are still really good friends and he said i dont know..... so i dont know what is happening.I miss him soooo much. Nothing will make me get over him or stop thinking about him. It may work for a few hours, but guareneed that i will be thinking about him that night. Oh ********...... my IPod is now playing My Heart Will Go On......... for anyone that i have told you would know why i go Oh ********..... But I hope that one day i will be able to move on..... s**t, now he is sitting beside me..... Yes i am at school right now doing this and i dont care. I just really need to get this out and on to something. But i think i will stop for right now. So Talk you all later.