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Its a new start for me i go to school now and im single but im still hurt about what has happen to me i mean reletionship wise friend wie lose people and getting backstab i never thought i would be betrayed or back stab ibut i guess thats how it work recently i have been going through many problems dealing with these issues and yes i do sometimes put them on my blog but i never tell u the full story i guess i try to fool my self and say its not as bad but in realtiy im being tore apart from te inside and though i may hide it very well it does sometime take its toll like to day i meet someone and we where talking but then once again like many othr times i was betrayed its kinda messed up to bc when u catch someone lying or chating or doing something wrong they say IM SORRY which is said after doing something wrong its messed up bc if they were then they wouldnt have done what they did its like saying OH I KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING BUT IN THE END I THINK I MADE HE BEST CHOICE BUT NOW I DONT THINK SO BC IM CAUGHT it also funny bc when a person says they r sorry how long should it last i hink to my slf if someone says sorry and then comebacks and says sory agaian does the first sorry even matter any more its like they cancel each other out many people dont even get what i mean when i say ur my best friend or i love u i guess in todays world people take those things for granite bc they r not use to it or they feel like they can take advatage of the situation i can list many times where i could have done this BUT im not that type of person i mean in my mind i try o be the most noble person i know one of my best frineds that I CAN truly say has been there for the worst of times rick i can understand the s**t he goes hrough bc i have gone through it my self 10 times worst although he may not know it he has helped me in his own way being there and listening to me Thats a true friend and i cant say anyone eles is like that but him now a days i cant find many people like him its not that i dont think that people are out there that dont do that but i just feel that many people stop careing many people gave up but thats where i come in i swear on this day that i wont let crap like that happen in fact i will turn it around exspoes people to what a true friend is make people relize things that r wrong there is no more sitting around wtaching things unwravel today i will be the one fight BETRAYAL bc i know that one day it wont be able to harm me