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It's happening again.

Those repetitive dreams that I so hate. Why do I hate them? Because everytime I start to have them something bad happens.

The first time I had them: Just before September 11 (the day of the attacks) also the day that the orthodontist cut open my gum with her sharp pointy metal tool thingy scream

The second time I had them: My dog died, dosen't sound too bad, except for the fact that I'd known him my whole life. I miss him (R.I.P Wherediddatindigo {yes that was his full name, we called him Indi for short})

The third time I had them: My mom attempted suicide. Luckily for all of us it failed, but she was serious about it.

and now it's the fourth time, and in all honestly I'm scared out of my wits. I've hardly been sleeping lately and it's really taking it's toll on myself and everyone around me.

But my dreams are repetitive not in their content but they all share a central theme, this time it's School. So far all of my dreams have taken place at school (but it's never the same school) and I get the distinct feeling that whatever will happen (if anything happens at all) will happen to someone from my dad's side of the family or my moms because a few the of the dreams have Casino's in them (don't ask) and most of my dad's family lives in Reno, Nevada and my mom and some of her family live only two hours away from Las Vegas.

Maybe I'm just paranoid...