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 Today marks the start of my new life...well, sort of...it actually starts tomorrow when i got to work at my new job. I landed a sweet summer job at a local county hospital that's not too far from my house and not only that, but one of my friends is going to be working with me and i've worked with her before and she's awesome to be around! ^_^ I can't wait, because i get to see her all the time and we've been away from each other too long, i think.
As far as the whole start of the new life thingy goes, well it's exactly as it sounds. I'm tired of being pulled down by the people that i know and love, but come to find that not only is the felling not mutual, but not even anywhere close to what i thought that it would be. I dunno, maybe i'm just making drama out of nothing, but honestly...i don't think so. I think that now they will realize how much of a loss that i will be to them.
They have recieved no warning, nor do they deserve one by any means. I'm not being mean, i'm just being just. They'll never know what hit them or what it was that they knew about me and thought that they could count on me. ******** that, i'm tired of being there for them and them never being there for me. They can all go to hell, maybe better yet...they don't even deserve the luxuries of hell, but rather the insanity of purgatory where they will be destined to wait for nothing for eternity.
stare Yup, sounds about right....i guess i'm just tired of being the "easy target" as they call it. I am no one's "easy target" anymore. They are all targets that must be eliminated from the depths of my very being. Therefore, to me they no longer exist. They are nothiing, but washed up memories and forgotten heartaches... stare
My new life starts tomorrow, where i will be able to create a world that is all my own and there are friends and family there that love and care about me always, not some of the time or when it is convienient for their "busy schedules." My new life entails visions of me happily enjoying the air that i breathe and the life that i live, for it is pure and to the fullest. Those allowed to join me will be those of a select few of whom i deemed worthy of my time, patience and most of all, my love. To those of whom i love, it is with you that i will spend the rest of my days with having fun and making beautiful memories that will be cherished for many years to come.
Highschool is over and so is the drama. Get over it. There is no more reason to live for the bullshit that was. There is no "used to" anymore and the "way it was" is no longer anymore. Those who were our friends then are no longer and have moved on to bigger and better things...hopefully.
The past is gone and we can hope for what the future brings.
I am the pheonix reborn from the ashes of my previous tragedies...watch my brilliant flames overpower thee and cripple thine senses, leaving you awestruck and powerless to my relentless attack upon your weak soul.
    
 Katsura1031 · Mon Jun 13, 2005 @ 05:53am · 0 Comments |
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