What have I done wrong in my life to deserve such a thing?
We can hardly afford a house payment, infact in two months we won't be able to and we're out on the streets. Like nothing.
We may lose internet in a week or so because my mom says it costs too much, (bout 150 total) when we could completely just lose tv and house phone since no one calls it anyway.. it would save just as much and when we moved down here the only thing I was promised was internet so I can keep in touch. If we knew we wouldn't be able to make thes epayments why did we move down here?
Mom, though I know you'll never see this, stop blaming dad. He already works a full time job, just like you and has retirement coming in. You b***h about him sitting on the computer all day after he gets home, well so do you. And today, I got my dad to come out back with me, and both of us made a spiderweb of twine till about half an hour ago, she came home probably... an hour and a half ago (from 8:32) and sat on the computer. I'm sick of your mood swings, you throw a good headset and break it then laugh and buy another one, wondering why we get sunk. Maybe if you didn't get so enraged over a freaking video game it wouldn't happen.
I'm sick of their fighting, I'm sick of me crying, I'm sick of it all and want it to end. They say something to the other half, and the other pretends not to hear them. They make snide remarks to get one another's goat, piss each other off. The game world of warcraft is no longer fun it's become a freaking sopa opera. This couple's divorcing, this one is one the verge of ending, this is supposed to be a game to relax me and now I get to deal with this? I give, nothing in my life goes as I hope, everything in the world seems to work against me in everyway it possibly can. I was getting good grades, was going to be in the same classes and school once more with all my friends. NO. I get that taken from me too, I move down here to the bottomless pit of hell.
I have to retake earth science because I need a 'north carolina earth science credit to pass' and I have a 'virginia earth science credit' the courses can't be but so much different. And what's with these people? Thye live all of 30 miles away and are two years behind in education? Wtf North Carolina, wake up.
I have a crush on two guys, one named Justin whom I can hardly speak to or look at. The other is Andrew, who I can talk to without problem, we're both smartasses with hard lives, it goes great. Andrew doesn't want girls, or anyone for that matter, he wants to be left alone to do what he pleases, I'm on that same scale when it comes to my future? Justin.. I really don't know much but his name and he's kind of like me, he's quiet around these extraterrestials called people, but when it comes to friends he's talkative and smiles.
I'm rethinking my admittance of being bisexual... honestly I just, don't feel it, maybe it was just a stupid teenage phase, or perhaps this is a phase pushing me out of it. I really don't know.. I'm confused and sick, there is no telling. I've started something that I'm going to be overly vague about, but everytime I have this thought and stop myself I put one on. Two so far, but one day I won't be able to stop the thought, it will come on, and you'll see no more of these...
We can hardly afford a house payment, infact in two months we won't be able to and we're out on the streets. Like nothing.
We may lose internet in a week or so because my mom says it costs too much, (bout 150 total) when we could completely just lose tv and house phone since no one calls it anyway.. it would save just as much and when we moved down here the only thing I was promised was internet so I can keep in touch. If we knew we wouldn't be able to make thes epayments why did we move down here?
Mom, though I know you'll never see this, stop blaming dad. He already works a full time job, just like you and has retirement coming in. You b***h about him sitting on the computer all day after he gets home, well so do you. And today, I got my dad to come out back with me, and both of us made a spiderweb of twine till about half an hour ago, she came home probably... an hour and a half ago (from 8:32) and sat on the computer. I'm sick of your mood swings, you throw a good headset and break it then laugh and buy another one, wondering why we get sunk. Maybe if you didn't get so enraged over a freaking video game it wouldn't happen.
I'm sick of their fighting, I'm sick of me crying, I'm sick of it all and want it to end. They say something to the other half, and the other pretends not to hear them. They make snide remarks to get one another's goat, piss each other off. The game world of warcraft is no longer fun it's become a freaking sopa opera. This couple's divorcing, this one is one the verge of ending, this is supposed to be a game to relax me and now I get to deal with this? I give, nothing in my life goes as I hope, everything in the world seems to work against me in everyway it possibly can. I was getting good grades, was going to be in the same classes and school once more with all my friends. NO. I get that taken from me too, I move down here to the bottomless pit of hell.
I have to retake earth science because I need a 'north carolina earth science credit to pass' and I have a 'virginia earth science credit' the courses can't be but so much different. And what's with these people? Thye live all of 30 miles away and are two years behind in education? Wtf North Carolina, wake up.
I have a crush on two guys, one named Justin whom I can hardly speak to or look at. The other is Andrew, who I can talk to without problem, we're both smartasses with hard lives, it goes great. Andrew doesn't want girls, or anyone for that matter, he wants to be left alone to do what he pleases, I'm on that same scale when it comes to my future? Justin.. I really don't know much but his name and he's kind of like me, he's quiet around these extraterrestials called people, but when it comes to friends he's talkative and smiles.
I'm rethinking my admittance of being bisexual... honestly I just, don't feel it, maybe it was just a stupid teenage phase, or perhaps this is a phase pushing me out of it. I really don't know.. I'm confused and sick, there is no telling. I've started something that I'm going to be overly vague about, but everytime I have this thought and stop myself I put one on. Two so far, but one day I won't be able to stop the thought, it will come on, and you'll see no more of these...
