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If you have seen the show Journeyman, this post may relate to you. The main character, some how, is able to travel back and time and change things for the better. Not in his life, but in others. It made me think about myself. What if I had the ability to go back knowing what i know and able to change things? Would I help myself? Would I help others? I then thought to myself, what if I did change my past? Would I be different or still be the same person? Would the relationships I have had lasted longer or still be going? I dont know and I dont wanna know. The past is meant to stay the way it is for a reason. We learn, we accept, we change. The past is in the past because we need to look back and realize that what we have done or didnt do is part of us today.

Coming up is my one year anniversary with Michelle and I realized that Im glad Im with her. I wouldnt want to go back and change anything, relationship wise, in my past. The people we meet and live our life with are there for a reason. Im with Michelle for a reason. I dont know what it is but I believe im starting to understand why. We're there for each other and just knowing that both of us need each other is all I need right now. If I had changed my past I might not have met the woman I am with now. That is one thing I would have regretted. I love her. I cant stand not being with her and every moment I am with her I never want it to end. So Michelle, I know youll probably read this so I wanna say this. We found each other for a reason. We fell in love for a reason. And i dont regret it one bit. We both have stuff in our past that we're scared of and are ashamed of but that doesnt matter to me right now. What matters to me is the time that I spend with you now, here in the present, and in the future. I love you and care for you very much.