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cold, so cold.
my body and my heart shiver from the cold.
i would have never of imagined to feel so much!
i miss you and i cannot tell you
worst of all i cannot tell myself.
why, why shouldnt i feel these emotions?
solitude makes me feel deaf pain.
that not even things in my past can soothe.
and whenever other feelings arise
like rage i cannot find peace
and i ask myself why us
why THIS WAY, why NEVER again.
"you made that choice alone!
nobody asked me anything"
you told me this with tears in your eyes.
now if only i could convince myself
that i was resonable
if only i could silence the doubts that crowd my mind
if only for one more time
i could loose myself in the heaven of your eyes!