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My Great Uncle Junior died today 8/23/07 at about 6:24 I was close to him he use to give me candy and play funny pranks on me and I'm gonna miss him but he needed to die he was just lying at the hospital suffering so I'm kinda glad he is outa his misery it just kinda hurts to know he's gone I mean my grandfather died earlier in the year and now junior died it kinda makes me scared cause it reminds me everyone has to die and it leaves me wondering who is gonna die next. I feel really bad for my grandma because first her husband dies and now her brother she is having it ruff and it must remind her about how old she is cause she keeps talking about what will happen when she dies which I don't want to think about cause I'm super close to her...I'm sad but I just can't cry I never cry when someone dies in fact I kinda go numb it makes me feel bad cause everyone around me is crying and grieving but I just can't my sisters think I'm a heartless freak and I'm beginning to think so too...my uncle is dead and I feel nothing grief wise I just feel pity for the family I don't know what to do or what to feel... crying