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*shrug* nothing interesting in my life. I keep seeming to go back and fourth to Canada but its done now. I guess maybe its my time to feel like crap again? I dont know, its not as bad as last year..I hold my regrets. Things are going well in some places but wrong in the others. I find out more this year than I have in my life unless I was a witness.

I feel like I will be alone, sometime soon too...moving...yeah we'll leave, but I dont know. Mai Lea, and Hannah..They are like my best friends...the ones I care about most? I have other great friends too...Sandra, Brittany L, Mai Lea's sister? Lyndsay?, Natalie, Danielle H, Brittany W...I dont know I know I have a lot more too...I just dont want to loose the 1st two. I think about things just going bad, being replaced, and I wont..unless I keep thinking like this and getting myself down.

I guess my Aunt Carla is sick, nobody know's whats going on..they found another sist...Shes really pale again. Last time she almost died and I care about her...she was close to me growing up, as were most of my aunts because I lived around them..they were like sisters? I guess aunt Carla and uncle Jeff might not be doing to good, he looks at other women? I dont know...I like Jeff, but I dont want her to deal with something she doesnt have to, so they might not get married, there might be a fight? Gah...I wish I could fix things.

So yeah a nonsense entry, im listening to music, its sad but its good its called wonderwall I feel like relating them but maybe im being over dramatic? Only god knows..

Wonderwall- Oasis

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day?
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after an
You're my wonderwall

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me