okay so yeah im really sick and tired of vicky always ruining my life and others life so she can be happy.....okay well if she wants bo happy so much why dont she just get a job and move out when she turns 18...which i next year but anyways....she always makes me cry and s**t and im sick and tired of it.....its okay tho i have friends tha make me happy and are there for me and stuff....my BF is there for me too...his name is saul and i love him very much and i dont want to ever lose the feelings i have for him....i would do anything to be with him right now but he lives so far away and i cant see him or touch him or anything and that makes me sad alot.....but he might come to where i live and stuff so that'll be kool and yeah vicky ruins everything end of story.....oh and im sick and tired of my friends always saying that they dont like my other friend i get sick o hearing it and i wish they would stop but....im afraid to tell them to bc i dnt want them to yell at me for haning out with who i want to and stuff i like hanging out with my friendi tell her things i wouldnt tell anyone else and she can keep secrets that i have and stuff my other firends would be like eww and stuff they would handle it badly..so yeah i cant tell them anything......when im around my other friends im different then when i hang out with my other firend...and i hate it....i hate it so much im myself when im with my friend...when im with my other friends im different but i like both of the people i am ....im so confused......and i dont show my feelings much like i wont cry infront of people im afraid to feel the feelings i feel....expcet love...i love that feelings sauls gives me im happy when im with him...but anyways....im afraid to feel.....bc most of my life i felt pain not physical but mental...and sometimes i just want to sit in my room and cry...well i think thats enough for now....TTYLATERS to whom ever reads this....comment if u want to
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