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My dog is dying. She is getting eaten up by cancer.. It was a very emotional thing to hear. Her back leg filled up with blood so its swollen and discolored. She cant move it well. Lost her appetite and sleeps alot. They told us they could give her a blood transfusion for around 2 grand, after doing tests on her to tell us what we already know for 3 grand. There are no promises that she will get better, and the transfusion would just prolong her death, if she survived the treatments. She is around 12 years old. She is a good, happy, loving companion, I could ask for none greater. She means a lot to this family, as we dont even consider her a "pet". She was there to give unconditional love when we needed comforting, and there to protect when we were in need of a sense of security, now is the time we return that kindness. I held in my grief as long as I could in the hospital as I walked her up and down the isles to stop her from whining. A woman came up from behind me, and told me putting them down is merciful. I think at that time, hearing that from a complete stranger was the worst thing I could hear. I gave my mom the leash and walked off choking on my tears. I never shared my business with the woman, I feel the comment was out of place. Crystal is not in pain, she is not suffering, she is her happy goofy self, wags her tail and greets us with lips curled into a smile. There is no reason at this time to end her life. I would rather her be with us, her family, at home, where she is familiar. Not on a leash, being dragged into a cold office by strangers that would inject poisons into her. Every human, animal, and plant on this earth is here for a reason, we are all here to serve our purpose and die when our missions are complete, whether we are aware of that mission or not. It makes me sick to think about cutting her life short. She is alive for a reason, her time has not come and no one, no matter how much they try to justify their actions, has the right to take that from her.
It is painful watching her go, but I am more at ease that she is home where she belongs, where she is happy, where she can go in peace, not from force.
I am quietly grieving. It is painful, to bond with any being for 12 years and to watch them fall apart. I try to compose myself when people ask about her. All I can do is watch, and be there to comfort her as best I can.