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For the past days I tried confining myself to the comforts of my room…
did some soul searching… checked if everything's fine... and at my surprise... I'm still at lost...
I struggled just to make it through the day… but I managed…
Maybe I just want peace of mind… I’m really confused…
I don’t know whether it’s rational for me to wait… or just let it be… maybe I just miss "him"… Time flies... I'm not getting any younger... time for me ticks too fast...

I’ve been around and yet my mind's not thinking clearly...
I’m still confused...
the only thing that's keeping me sane are the people around me... friends...
I carry around a happy mask and yet deep inside I’m thorned...
thorned of my own doing... why can't I just be the old f*ckin' lyne?!
The lyne that gets everything that she wants!
The lyne who cursed the world and cared for none?!
Well… maybe if so… the world would be damned…
Coz in real life there’s no such thing as perfect… s**t happens…
It’s just the matter of how you’ll stand up and show everyone that despite of all the s**t you’re still standing and fighting…
I still don't know what to do... I hope someone can help me... I can't help myself... maybe YOU could help me...
I don't know...
I’m puzzled...
Maybe... maybe...
no... to cowardly to just end it all...
my heart has turned to ice... no one cares...