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Okay, a great man once said, "A dream is something that you truly desire, or something you truly fear." Well, my dream last night had a little of both. And this is how it goes (By the way, I'm going to be defining the things that happened in my dream. To see what they truly mean in life):

It started out in this apartment, in this skyscraper. Me and three other's were rehearsing. See, we were the top four in American Idol, and we were good! (So, to define that-- I desire to do something big, possibly even change the world.) But, things went bad... The other three contestants were talking about me saying that I messed up on a note. Blah blah, we all got into a fight, and I quit American Idol. I told them, "I don't even know why I'm here, I can't even sing!" Then, I left. (So, to define that-- I fear failure in something that I really enjoy. Mostly my writing.) Once, I left the apartment, my grandfather chased after me saying, "Devin, come back. Where are you gonna go?" I told him I didn't know where I was staying, but I'm leaving. (So, to define that-- I desire a friend or family member to care for me even when I don't want them too.)

From there, night fall came, I was still roaming the streets... Having nowhere to go. I wound up at my cousin's house. I was crying and I didn't know what to do. So, me, her, and her daughter, Jasmine, watched movies. Then I looked over at the door, and this guy walks in. He had a smile that made me go weak in the knees. He was incredibly gorgeous!! He walked over and we were talking. I couldn't stop smiling. His name was Travis. Just then, he leaned over and kissed my cheek and told me I was cute. (So, to define that-- I desire someone special in my life. It's time that I had someone come to me, and love me for me.) Jasmine, then told us to come with her to the fair. It was right outside of her house. It was sort of like mine, and Travis' first date. *Giggle* Anyway, Jasmine paid for me and Travis... But, the man said that the money was fake. I was like, "How the hell can it be fake!?! We are kids, we don't know how to counterfeit!" Well, he didn't believe, and he called security. Luckily, we didn't get arrested. We were just banned from that fair. (So, to define that-- I fear, when I do meet someone, things will go for the worst.)

Later on, we ended up in a dorm in a Boarding School. I was laying next to Travis on his bed, and we were cuddling. *I LOVED IT!!* Sadly, he told me that he had to go away fro college. A medical school. I cried and cried. (So, to define that-- I fear that, when I meet someone, they'll sooner or later leave me.) But, he gave me his phone number at the dorm he was going to be staying at, and I gave him my cell phone number.... Then, he quickly left. Leaving me alone, once again...

I went home to rot in my sadness, when I discovered that I lost his number! I drove to his old dorm room, to find his number. I searched all over his old room, an all over that campus... It wasn't found. (So, to define that-- I'm afraid to lose someone who I truly love forever...)

That's where it ended. Pretty sad, huh? It is... And, the thing is that I forgot what he looked like. That gorgeous guy with an incredible smile... The only man who loved me, and I can't even remember what he looks like...