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The title says it all. surprised I'm the most pathetic person in the entire world! Even if I call people pathetic, it's just because I want to feel better I guess. Anyway, I'm always overreacting for nothing and yeah it's stupid and annoying. But it's not my fault, I feel that if I don't overreact people don't pay attention to me. And that's the only thing I want. I just want my friends and family to pay attention to me. Do they do it? No, they don't. gonk Plus I feel like a slave at my place, always doing stuffs that I don't want to do but that my family forces me to do. My friends, they annoy me. They say I don't pay attention to them, but they're the ones not paying attention to what I say or do. I'm sure that if I got it by a car, they would keep walking as if everything was totally normal. xp
What I'm trying to say is that I'm sick and tired of living. "It's just a phase you're going through." my friends are telling me. Just who the hell are they to decide that? stressed
I realized that I have no future... Before I wanted to become a doctor so I could help people especially in poor countries, but then I abandonned that dream because I knew I could never pass the math studies and would never have the money to pay for it. So I recently decided to become a psychologist. I could still help people, just not in the same way. I don't need to do too much math studies and a lot of money. But now, I'm thinking and I don't think I'll be able to go in psychology. I'm failing science physics so I don't think I'll be accepted next year in physics and chemics. My life is a total disaster! eek
I wish that I could die now... Like that I wouldn't have to do all my exams that are next week. It's kind of selfish from me. I wonder if I take lots of tylenol, I'll die... ninja
At least Gaia keeps me alive! domokun heart