• Im running. not for the freedom. but something else. wind blows into my face. a moist humid breeze. it smells like its going to rain. as I run, I feel the wanting to run faster. then. that's wen I remember what I'm running for. I see their heads bobbing up and down as they walk away from me. although I was close enough to reach for them, I couldn't even hear them. I could only hear the beating of pulse.

    I try reaching my fingers out to touch her. the only friend I thought I had. but as soon as I was close enough to hold her hand, it suddenly disappears. I try asking what was happening. but they ignore me as if they don't even know I'm there. i repeated what Ive wanted to say all my life. I got louder and louder. I started screaming it. they probably couldn't hear me. I couldn't hear anything else anymore. I was still screaming but I couldn't even hear myself.

    they start to walk faster. or was it just that I got slower. I stopped, giving up everything. my eyes got blurry at the vision of my beautiful friends. no. they weren't friends. they were more like family. but not anymore. I can't believe they would just walk out on me. I feel the hard floor on my knees as the hard drops of water pour onto my back. I stare at them walk away hoping for them to glance back. no one did. hoping wouldn't do anything.

    then. I felt a sharp pain in my chest. I fell onto the floor clutching the pain. it was hurting so much. I want it to stop. I just layed there as my cold empty body got dirty. nothing else happened. no one came to help. I was helpless. hopeless.

    vulnerable.