• This world is a black boid… Seriously have you stoped to think about the reason the human species exists? Maybe you have.. but have you gone even farther as to question why the earth or even the unicerce exists? Well I think it is all meaning less...
    Sure I’ll still live this hell hole of a life. I don’t want to spend it unhappy and I am constantly pushing these thoughts aside. I just take it day by day. I come in and out of small depresstions, which were set off by the smallesst thing, a fight with family or friends, a stupid comment, and many other things.
    I just get pissy when im in a depresstion, and I know my sister hates it and that she can tell when im in a depression. Though I really don’t care if she has to deal with some of my pissy moods, because I have to deal with her when she is pissy and when she snaps at me when I didn’t do anything. She is my sister im willing to deal with it though. I may have to but I am willing. I have been her friend since I was five, and she has gone through a lot, from being taken away from her mom like three time, having an alchoholic grandmother and having a dad, that she didn’t meet till she was eleven, on drugs. Her grans trying to clean up her act and so is her dad but I havnt heard much about her mom.
    When she was taken away from her mom in second grade I had lost complete contact from her for two years, but sha came back and it was like she was gone five minutes. I don’t even really remember the time she was gone. I remember this though. I had written her a couple letters to her wanting to send them but not having an addtess or anything. I was sad and lonely but I suffered through it knowing that I had to continure through life, even living lies, and make the beast of it.