life that is
you spend so much time trying to find the meaning, the reason for living. though the years of school and having friends come and go i thought i had it all figured out. i guess we all think that way sometimes. waiting forever for a sign, something to show that your on the right path. there isn't a right path. they are all the same, they all will lead you to your destiny and though fate may sometimes be cruel in the end you'll see it was for the best. i may never know why my life so far has been so hard but there are times i can see the sun shine brighter than everyone else because of it. i don't believe i have much wisdom though many have said sence i was young that i speak about things beyound my years, if only i know why i know things others can't see. none could every understand how hard it is to be me. even when i was young i would never think of living, i always saw death right around the corner and never planned ahead. there's was no point in thinking of the furture if i didn't have any. things change so much in only a matter of days. i've always been here for other people, if i knew it or not. being stuck in the past can wear you down. no one listens anymore but that's ok, they can only ignore me for so long. i won't be shut up, held down, locked out, pushed around, drowned out, broken in two, told i'm nothing, made fun of, or looked down apon anymore. all i can be is myself and though it may take awhile to find because i never had it i won't be somebody else until then. we base what we do from the people around us but we are the only ones who can choose what will happen. don't let anyone else choose who you are. i followed everyone else for so long and i can't, i just can't be a follower anymore. before i would never bite back and i've grown fangs. this world is not my home but for now, is sure feels like it. i can't die yet, i have so much to do. though i don't know what i know i'll find out what is it someday. i hated that God would always keep things from me but if i knew then what i know now i wouldn't be able to do the things i can do.
if i find anything else on my mind about this subject i'll come back to it.
ner domokun >P fear the weirdo that can sound smart one min then dorky the next :3
 ruka2990 · Thu Feb 24, 2005 @ 09:54pm · 0 Comments |
