Just as depressed as i was yesterday is how hyper i am today. Not nessisarely happy, but i am definatly fine. I keep laughing about nothing and....yeah. I had a lot of sugar in astronomy...we made icecream comets...so i think that was what got me doing fine.
So...life goes on another day in my life. Nothing too out of the usual, nothing really to talk about. Accept i have almost been feeling guilty evertime i ate food today...
i have slight hope again in finding love somewhere...i dunno how long thast will hold, but whatever, i am not depressed so i don't care.
Today i was thinking...even if i talked to one new person each day at school...i still wouldn't have talked to everyone. And then next year if i kept going at it, there would be like 500 new freshman or whatever in our school. Thats more new people than there are days in a whole year.
I'm going to try and not be so closed off, so shy... because...something kenny said...and then owO something another semi-friend said in the hall to me (Remember sarah! there are no strangers, only unmet freinds) and then other events that have been happening...its all so strange. I mean...there is this one girl in my astronomy class....i didn't even know she existed. And then one morning she walked by and told me she liked my new hair (i got it cut shorter and i colored it more redish) and i said thanks and just kinda looked at her mystified before she told me she was in my class. Then...that led to seeing her in the halls this morning...and then today i told her hi and waved to her in class.
Then in 6th period, my guitar class, i startted talking to this one kid, David...kinda an akward kid, and we were laughing about the astroid/comet lab we did in Astronomy. And ther other night...kenny was telling me about "bubbles" ...its kinda hard to explain, but basically everyone has their own bubble and some people arent' even aware that there are other things going on in other people's lives...And i have really been thinking on that recently.
My eyes have been opened a little more than they were before.....And life only seems stranger and full of more coincidences.
I think i am about to start beleiving that things happen for a reason and maybe life is just all pre planned... or that things all happen for a reason. Things just happen too ...strangely....to be all in our controll.
I have never beleived that htere was a god, and i don't think i ever will...but when things in my life come together like they do ....its almost eirie. It makes me think that there has to be something out there guiding our lives with a nonchalant hand.
 HatsuharuRocks · Sat Nov 18, 2006 @ 06:48am · 1 Comments |
