Dear Journal,
Today I found out my middle sister, Rebekah, 18, is pregnant.
Enviouse... angry... worthless... are just a few words to describe how I feel: not at her, me.
I can't have children.
I guess I should feel happy for her because she at least has graduated high school and that this will be my niece/nephew, but she's not Christian...
I just want to curl up and die right now...
I really believe God is torturing me! My step-sister has two kids, one of my best friends has a baby and another one on the way, and even her mother is pregnant. I also have another friend who was pregnant, but misscarried.
I hate myself right now.
I hate life.
I feel so worthless and taunted...
Tora Yukino · Tue Sep 12, 2006 @ 11:50pm · 1 Comments |