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So I know I say this alot, but my life has gotten too depressing lately.
To the point where I just dont care about life or myself.
To the point where I just want to crawl into a crack in the wall and stay there for eterneity(sp?). I'm too scared to commite sicide, because.. well I just dont know.
But I feel like im bleeding and dieing inside.
I have no self-estem anymore and my family isent helping.
My older sister is 18.
When I come to her for help with problems like these, she just throws it back in my face.
My mom only makes things worse along with my dad and my younger sister has no clue.
everyone sees me as annoying..
People in High school are a** wipes(excuse my french) and I know that I have to
get over it,
but im not the kind of person to yell back at people
and be an a** right back.
Its hard for me to do things like that..
Im called annoying every day for knowing things that everyone is suppossed to know.
take my P.E class for example.
I knew the rules and said if the ball was in or out,
and they dident.
So they called me annoying for "talking too much"...
I think im too loud and obnoxious,
and its not my fault I was born that way..... im just going to be quiet from here on..
I'll write more later.
I have a second degree burn in my mouth from eating extreamly hot food and its very annoying.
ninja
 Mari Kyomo · Wed Sep 06, 2006 @ 03:27am · 6 Comments |
