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THe new school year is getting close,r I have gotten all sorts of clothes, new backpack, the usual, except for starting a new level in school. Highschool, I'm wondering what challenges lay up ahead... K:It won't be that much different... Well...you never know...and while I'm getting closer to highschool, I feel some people are getting farther away... K: Hn...you never know, things happen that we can't explain... Well...how would you feel if you barely got to spend time with C, if you cared and were a girl, during the summer, and C even wanted to quit the class that kept you guys hanging out. Not only that but it's as if C hasn't invited you to hangout or anything atall, unless you were the last resort, while you hear all over that other people are going over that C's house. K: Hn...dunno, I would just brush it off as some kind of faze, as long as I had something to do This has been going on all summer...now I just feel maybe your right, I mean...I didn't get to get better at drawing...but...I don't like being hung up on often... K: New year is starting things will cool off, act impassive, and you'll be off to a better start. Dont let it bother you... THat's the most you've said in a while K: I know I've gotta stop coldeyedflames · Thu Aug 03, 2006 @ 06:13pm · 22 Comments


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	Okay lemme see... i wanted to cancel that class because i thought it was a waste of time, it had nothing to do with you so get over yourself. I never asked because i didn't think that you would be allowed over, i mean come on your parents and supervision is over your house, why would they allow us to stay alone at mine? It doesn't make sense to me. And your not a last resort but if you want me to start considering you that then okay, and well... as for the hanging up thing, come on we really dont have anything to talk about much on the phone except for roleplaying and even that sometimes just gets boring. I'm sorry that i have more than just you for a friend now, and i want them to come over my house too, i mean... how dare i! trying to get other people to come over my house rolleyes because i'm alone for most of the ****** day by myself, and it hurts inside to be alone, with no one around to speak to. Oh and PS: This whole thing with the pants i bought, i am going to still wear them a lot. I mean, when you took my skirt i barely wore it because i was afraid to wear it on the same day as you but now i don't give a crap anymore. I can wear it where ever and whenever i want, it's not for you to decide. And don't say it was your only pair of hot topic pants, because that was my only skirt to wear that matched with my polo shirts. Just get over it. Okay? Offline L'Arc En Ciel** · Community Member · Thu Aug 03, 2006 @ 08:01pm


	Well...I don't mean that you can't hang out with them, but that's a lame excuse cause you've asked before, and anyways, about the pants, I wasn't even complaining about them, maybe you should look over what you say, and if it gets boring don't just hang up on me...so whatever as Kyle said, I'll get over it, in fact...I already have. So it doesn't matter anymore... and for the skirt, I didn't know you had it, am I supposed to remember the design of your damn skirt??? but whatever, I'll wear the pants too, and we'll be matching big whoop... so don't try to excuse it when the subject is hours old... Offline coldeyedflames · Community Member · Thu Aug 03, 2006 @ 10:11pm


	Yeah, yeah a lame excuse, lets just go with that. Obviously whatever the hell your thinking right now i can't change so i'm not even gonna bother speaking. So what is the problem!? Offline L'Arc En Ciel · Community Member · Thu Aug 03, 2006 @ 11:00pm


	Nothing...I just feel like this summer, you seemed to be trying hard just to talk to me, when Madi left for a week, I noticed you picked up my calls more often, but don't get me wrong, it has nothing to do with that, but hanging up on me and stuffs, when you could just say bye... Offline coldeyedflames · Community Member · Thu Aug 03, 2006 @ 11:24pm


	Dude you weren't the only one who i had to speak to during the summer so some of the times i just didn't take your call. I have other friends you know i don't wait around for your call! Offline L'Arc En Ciel · Community Member · Thu Aug 03, 2006 @ 11:47pm


	I've said I know for the how many-ith time, It's not like I called eveyr day of every week, in fact I called once or twice, or maybe three times a week, and yet you would still not pick up, you may have other friends, and all, and you may act like I don't know that, but that's not really an excuse to ignore, when i know you spend every hour of everyday on the internet, and the realy person oyu talk to every minute of every day and really rely on is Madi, no offense to her at all, but it's true... I know you barely pick up for Megan, and you told me that Ruwen's phone was broken...I know you don't call Olivia, you tlak to her and Amanda online, who do you call Bin??? Offline coldeyedflames · Community Member · Thu Aug 03, 2006 @ 11:51pm


	Okay first of all that's none of your ****** buisness. Second of all, Kelli has been consuming my time also, we do happen to talk over the summer. And yes i do speak to Megan! What the hell!? Ruwen had her phone broken for what... like two weeks? Wow, long long time. and what? are you jealous i speak to Hiroara more than you now? Hey! It's not my fault we really dont have much to speak of! Oh and i'm not on the computer all the god damned time i draw and play the ps2 and stuff, and i'm actually trying to start writing again. So get your **** facts straight. Offline L'Arc En Ciel** · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 12:02am


	Uhh...not jealous...and not bothered, so...you know what if I'm soo boring then and just soo time consuming, and really just a waste of breath, end this argument, it twas a journal on how I felt, and Kyle answered all of my questions...so you didn't have to say anything... and read it ove,r caus eit wasn't all about you. Offline coldeyedflames · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 12:06am


	sorry, i missed the part where it hinted off any other people you were talking about. And now your making it seem like i'm an attention craver or something! Oh yeah, yeah yeah your very boring, i'll just nod my head and agree k? Offline L'Arc En Ciel · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 12:08am


	No but...ah! You just said in your comments, you hang up cause you get bored!!!!! But I have a feeling this argument got out to toher people, sooo...it's just over alrgiht, it's just a talk of feelings with Kyle, who says it has to be recent thoughts??? Maybe this was sitting in my real journal for a while, and I felt like posting it?! I'm just saying that this wasn't supposed to start anything, but I guess Kyle was right about keeping private things private... Offline coldeyedflames · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 12:16am


	What the ******!? Okay dude your freakin me out, he isn't a real person! He's an imaginary cartoon anime character thing! Your... a person! He's not! He may be a part of your mind, but still man your starting to freak the hell outta me with this whole thing. It doesn't matter wat he says, he could say he wants to gut me and hang my organs on the wall... but yeah it's not gonna happen! Offline L'Arc En Ciel** · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 12:19am


	Yeah, I know, but it's easier to take a character you know and form a personality along with it, so then it's easier to answer myself in ways that I usually couldn't. I know I don't always listen to him but some part of me thinks of what he might do, what COdy might do...or even Cale...or Mimi...even if they aren't real, it's easier to create realistic characters that way... Offline coldeyedflames · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 12:25am


	.... that's not creative... okay? It's actually scaring me right now. So could you stop? Well it is creative, but it's way freakier than creative, so just stop listenin to your little charries! They're characters after all, you draw them! Geeze... i'd hate to see you when they come alive on screen. Offline L'Arc En Ciel · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 12:28am


	it wouldn't make a difference, as I said...they help me answer myself without actually a stupid answer that i would work on impulse with, what I want to do, and what I can do, are two different things...it's not like I'm talking to them as if they're invisble, I just think, what they would do...and I would compare with what I would do, to come up with more of a difference. Offline coldeyedflames · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 12:31am


	okay yeah... the... arugment ended... i'm just freaked out now... and speechless... i'm gonna... go over there... Offline L'Arc En Ciel · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 12:32am


	okies then, it's not that crazy nor that hard, you're kinda overreacting... Offline coldeyedflames · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 12:33am


	as always it always has to be me over reacting 3nodding okay then. Offline L'Arc En Ciel · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 12:56am


	no! Augh! I overreact too! But at that instance you were overreacting!! Okay...read carefully, i'm not saying they're real, but building a better character that's my way to make their stories better!!! And you act like you wouldn't do it...it's jus tlike saying if someone asked "what would ELlie do in this situation," and I'm sure you would answer for Ellie. Offline coldeyedflames · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 12:59am


	of course, but i'm answering for Ellie, she's not answering for me. Offline L'Arc En Ciel · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 01:25am


	either which way there's no difference, dude, either way, you'r edoing things as if they were real, I mean you may be answering for Ellie, but the same for me is I'm answering for Cody or Kyle my own question. Think about it more and you'll understand it better... Offline coldeyedflames · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 01:32am


	could you stop trying to act so deep, at least around me? and yes there is a difference, i own my character, the character doesn't own me. Offline L'Arc En Ciel · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 01:51am


	My character doesn't own me, and I'm not 'acting deep' that's how I'm trying to explain, and I control my character or else, I would'nt have created it, so don't try to come up with a reason for me now. I know what I'm doing, or else, i would be some cold-hearted person who didn't give a damn about noone, so check it again, and think on how before this, I was normal, and suddenly I mention one thing and to you i'm some insane person you just can't seem to understand. But look this is starting up another flame great. stare Offline coldeyedflames · Community Member · Fri Aug 04, 2006 @ 01:55am

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